Emoções e Sentimentos

Before light was, light's bright idea lit
        God's thought of it,
And, because through God's thought light's thought did pass,
        Light ever was,
And from beyond eternity became
        The living flame
That trembles into life and reddens with
        Our life's soul‑width.

Before light was, when yet the night was queen
        O'er what had been,
In God's realized prescience it could be
        Light from eternity,
For no time enters into God's thoughts or
        Their spaceless Hour.

Take thou therefore, my Song, from light the mood
        Of being, and brood,
Like the Dove unbegot, over the abyss
        Of consciousness,
Taking as thy true part that thought of God
        Whence light issued.

Let my words burst into that divine flame
        That lights its name
Of each thing from within with ultimate meaning.
        Though earth be screening
With fixed appearance the Sun in each Thing,
        Bear, on thy wing
High‑lifted, rays from the unrisen Sun
        Whence life is spun.

Soar out, my Song, out of despair and night
        And catch that light
Ere it appear, from neath the horizon
        Of action,
Borne out of dreams by intuition bright
        Of endless light.

Though none believe nor any understand,
        Yet feel thee fanned
With those breeze‑breaths that come up with the morn
        From the Unborn.
Soar like a lark into the coming day
        And bear thy way
Into the possibility of noon
        Hid in the dawn.

No matter that none know what thy words speak.
        A day shall break
Out of eternity as each day bright
        Out of each night.
Thy wings shall touch the slanting light of dawn
        And, upwards drawn
By being light‑struck, shall to light be near
        When light's yet far.

Hope is thy ready and high‑soaring flight
        Out of the night,
Joy is thy touching of the first high rays
        That day betrays,
Life is the course thy flight sequesters from
        Earth and its nightly doom,
And these three things are one in thy belief
        That pain is brief.

II

Thou, unseeen Bird, essence of spiritual light,
        That yet art bright
With the epitome of the outer shine,
        Thou that art mine
And yet not mine but general to the earth,
        Wings of rebirth,
Whose song, though in me heard, participates
        Of all that all elates,
Thou point of meeting of me with the wings
        Hidden in all things,
Thou breath, thou vapour, seen and not seen, of
        Some abstract love,
Thou exhalation of the prisoned flight
        Of all things' weight,
Thou that in me art fear, mad splendour, all
        To ache and enthral,

Attract me, take me, o pure flight, and rise
        With me in thine eyes,
Lost, cast, unpetalled and divine, up to
        What thou dost woo!

O Spirit‑Lark that wakest ere the morn
        And art reborn
At each recoming of the sun, and art
        The wiser part
Of all that message is to our low eyes
        Of what shall rise!
Life‑weightless Bird that no meads can attract,
        But that must act
Its fate in air, above our marshes sad
        And meads low‑laid,
In free heights communing with the Great Horn
        As yet unborn!
O sterile Bird that hast no nest nor home
        But what shall come,
That hast no song save in the heights above
        Nests, homes and love,
Nor any thought save for the coming day,
        Though far away
It seem to those who measure yet thy flight
        But by its height
And not by its intention, that is carried
        From life and married
To those diviner hours that winged things
        Find with their wings!
O Bird of ruthless song and untold wishes,
        Whose high flight reaches
Heights not of earth, but of pure air, encumbered
        With no joys weighed and numbered!
Take all my heart in thy purpose of going
        And make the flowing
Down to earth of my song be like thy song,
        Something strange, strong
With distance, eerily half‑perishing
        From farness! Sing,
And let my heart be what thou meanst with singings
        My life with winging.
My hopes and fears with th’tone wherewith thy note
        To me doth float
And the great purpose hidden in my fate
        With thy mere height!

My heart shall thus be happy even if pained,
        Free even if strained
To keep that height of joy whence tremble down
        Thy songs to our own.
My soul may thus be happy, full and free.
        Oh, happily
Raise me from me and lift my life unto
        That thou dost woo -
The light, the sky, the distance and the morn,
        Till I be unborn
Again to pure dispersion in the seas
        Of the high breeze
That speaks to thee, ere light be born, of light,
        Till the delight
Of without being being shall make me
        Song and sky be!

O voice the angels kissed when unbreathed yet!
O lips made spiritual with uttering it!
O eyes wild with the lust of the divine
In thy felt presence, making thee its shrine!
O that this moment of thee were Thyself!
That thou ne’er fell'st from this Thou, and the pelf
Of gathered days with avarice of living,
Touched thee not from this moment of God's giving!
O eternal actuality of thee!
O by thy voice sculptured immutably
In some stone‑flesh of spirit! O set free
From being all contained in being seen!
O firmament of joy purely serene
With spaciousness of soul and stars of song
Above thyself, God's human heights among!

Sing on, and let thy singing be a couch
To that of me which to my soul doth vouch
Of God as of a self and of a home!
Dissolve me to thy notes! Make me become
An outside of myself, and have in me
Nought but a selfless sense of hearing thee!
Let me pertain to the sounds thou dost voice!
Let me be other than I and rejoice
Hearing time like a breeze pass by the place
Thy song imprisons in its halcyon grace!

Thy voice compels to parapets from heaven
Dim winged happinesses whence is woven
To our souls such a glamour, spirit‑fair,
That, feeling it, all life becomes despair
And all the sense of life to wish to die.
Sing on! Between the music's human cry
And thy song's meaning there is interposed
Some third reality, less life‑enclosed,
Some subtler tenderness than music makes
Or words sung, and its moonless moonlight takes
Our visionary moods by their child‑hand
And our tired steps begin to understand.

Sing, nor stop singing till bliss ache too much!
O that I could, without moving my hand,
Stretch forth some hand imaginary and touch
That body of thine thy singing giveth thee!
That kiss‑like touch would wake eternity
In me again, and, as by a great morn,
The night my body makes of me were torn
Away from being, and my unbodied shape
Would, like a ship doubling the final cape,
Come to that sight of port and shiver of coming
That God allows to those whose bliss of roaming
Is no more than the wish to find His peace
And mingle with it as a scent with the breeze.

Somewhere where I shall never live
        A palace garden bowers
Such beauty that dreams of it grieve.

There, lining walks immemorial,
        Great antenatal flowers
My lost life before God recall.

There I was happy and the child
        That had cool shadows
Wherein to feel sweetly exiled.

They took all these true things away.
        O my lost meadows!
My childhood before Night and Day!

Somewhere where I shall never live
        A palace garden bowers
Such beauty that dreams of it grieve.

There, lining walks immemorial,
        Great antenatal flowers
My lost life before God recall.

There I was happy and the child
        That had cool shadows
Wherein to feel sweetly exiled.

They took all these true things away.
        O my lost meadows!
My childhood before Night and Day!

Chalice of my communion
        With the lost thing that gleams!
Communion‑bond of union
        Between me and my dreams!
O chalice of love's most!
In thy wine, earth's wine's ghost
        To lips that are God's flowers,
My soul has dipped the host
        Of my diviner hours.

My lips are as lips kissed.
        My sad soul happy sings.
O shining through the mist
        Of tremulous angels' wings!
I feel me God's moon's node,
A child again, outside life's road,
        Remembering how I found me
When I awoke from God
        And felt the world around me.

Andei sozinho na praia
Andei na praia a pensar
No jeito da tua saia
Quando lá estiveste a andar.

Uma boneca de trapos
Não se parte se cair.
Fizeste-me a alma em farrapos...
Bem: não se pode partir.

O meu coração quebrou-se
Como um bocado de vidro
Quis viver e enganou-se...

O meu coração quebrou-se
Como um bocado de vidro
Quis viver e enganou-se...

Cá estamos no píncaro — nós dois.
Nós dois e Homero? Não sabemos. Esse está mais abaixo.
Estendemos a mão e cada qual ainda que cego chega a Deus (ele não)
O quê — você não chega? Então você desaparece? — ou não chegou.

Sou míope e português
Se houver troca de louros
(...)

P'ra Apolo falta-me a beleza
Mas também falta só isso.
[...]
[...]

Camarada Will, qualquer de nós
Vale o resto, excepto o outro

Ave, poema mudo de verso (poema diverso)
Verso mudo de frases
Mesmo (ó diabo!) mudo de mim
Não importa. Feliz encontro

Meu coração, mistério batido pelas lonas dos ventos...
Bandeira a estralejar desfraldadamente ao alto,
Árvore misturada, curvada, sacudida pelo vendaval,
Agitada como uma espuma verde pegada a si mesma,
(...)
Para sempre condenada à raiz de não se poder exprimir!
Queria gritar alto com uma voz que dissesse!
Queria levar ao menos a um outro coração a consciência do meu!
Queria ser lá fora...
Mas o que Sou? O trapo que foi bandeira,
As folhas varridas para o canto que foram ramos,
As palavras socialmente desentendidas, até por quem as aprecia,
Eu que quis fora a minha alma inteira,
E ficou só a chapéu do mendigo debaixo do automóvel,
Estragado estragado,
E o riso dos rápidos Soou para trás na estrada dos felizes...

Meu coração, mistério batido pelas lonas dos ventos...
Bandeira a estralejar desfraldadamente ao alto,
Árvore misturada, curvada, sacudida pelo vendaval,
Agitada como uma espuma verde pegada a si mesma,
(...)
Para sempre condenada à raiz de não se poder exprimir!
Queria gritar alto com uma voz que dissesse!
Queria levar ao menos a um outro coração a consciência do meu!
Queria ser lá fora...
Mas o que Sou? O trapo que foi bandeira,
As folhas varridas para o canto que foram ramos,
As palavras socialmente desentendidas, até por quem as aprecia,
Eu que quis fora a minha alma inteira,
E ficou só a chapéu do mendigo debaixo do automóvel,
Estragado estragado,
E o riso dos rápidos Soou para trás na estrada dos felizes...

Meu coração, mistério batido pelas lonas dos ventos...
Bandeira a estralejar desfraldadamente ao alto,
Árvore misturada, curvada, sacudida pelo vendaval,
Agitada como uma espuma verde pegada a si mesma,
(...)
Para sempre condenada à raiz de não se poder exprimir!
Queria gritar alto com uma voz que dissesse!
Queria levar ao menos a um outro coração a consciência do meu!
Queria ser lá fora...
Mas o que Sou? O trapo que foi bandeira,
As folhas varridas para o canto que foram ramos,
As palavras socialmente desentendidas, até por quem as aprecia,
Eu que quis fora a minha alma inteira,
E ficou só a chapéu do mendigo debaixo do automóvel,
Estragado estragado,
E o riso dos rápidos Soou para trás na estrada dos felizes...

Tocam sinos a rebate
E levantaste-te logo.
Teu coração só não bate
Por a quem puseste fogo.

Onda que vens e que vais
Mar que vais e depois vens,
Já não sei se tu me atrais,
E, se me atrais, se me tens.

Todas as horas faço gaffes de civilidade e etiqueta
(A vida social é complexa para a minha fraqueza de nervos)
Mas nunca existiu quem só tivesse vivido em alma
Numa eterna luta de Janus.

Arre, a humanidade é uma coisa muito complexa...
Tenho-a observado com os olhos e os
nervos, e ainda não percebi.
(Compreender é um navio ao longe)

Toda a gente que tenho conhecido

Estou farto de semi-deuses!
Onde é que há gente no mundo?

Não tenho um amigo, um conhecido, em quem batessem
Ninguém que eu conheça perdeu o amor de uma mulher.
Tenho feito muitas coisas más, muitas coisas reles, muitas infâmias.
Tenho sido cobarde, revoltante, sujo.
Não encontro ninguém assim.
Todos têm sido príncipes, os que têm andado comigo

O FUTURO

Sei que me espera qualquer coisa
Mas não sei que coisa me espera.

Como um quarto escuro
Que eu temo quando creio que nada temo
Mas só o temo, por ele, temo em vão.
Não é uma presença; é um frio e um medo.
O mistério da morte a mim o liga.

Ao [...] fim do meu poema.

Estou cheio de tédio, de nada. Em cima da cama
Leio, com uma minuciosidade atómica,
Lentamente, com uma atenção sem chama,
A Nova Enciclopédia Maçónica.

Penso no que fui (não me escapam as entrelinhas),
E o que a minha alma quis e a minha vida fez.
Coube-me, como a uma senhora um carrinho de linhas,
No meio do Grau 32 do Rito Escocês.

O que quis do passado por brisas se esfolha,
O que pude de oculto teve a tempo medo;
E olho a sorrir o título no alto da folha:
Sublime Príncipe do Real Segredo...

Rezas a Deus ao deitar-te
Pedindo não sei o quê.
Se rezasses ao demónio,
Eu saberia o que é.

A luz crua do estio prematuro
Sai como um grito do ar da primavera...

Meus olhos ardem-me como se viesse da Noite...
Meu cérebro está tonto, como se eu quisesse justiça...
Contra a luz crua todas as formas são silhuetas.

Quando compões o cabelo
Com tua mão distraída
Fazes-me um grande novelo
No pensamento da vida.

The other day indeed,
With my shoe, on the wall,
I killed a centipede
Which was not there at all.
How can that be?
It's very simple, you see -
Just the beginning of D. T.

When the pink alligator
And the tiger without a head
Begin to take stature
And demanded to be fed,
As I have no shoes
Fit to kill those,
I think I'll start thinking:
Should I stop drinking?

But it really doesn't matter...
Am I thinner or fatter
Because this is this?
Would I be wiser or better
If life were other than this is?

No, nothing is right.
Your love might
Make me better than I
Can be or can try.
But we never know
Darling, I don't know
If the sugar of your heart
Would not turn out candy...
So I let my heart smart
And I drink brandy.

Then the centipede come
Without trouble.
I can see them well.
Or even double.
I'll see them home
With my shoe,
And, when they all go to hell,
I'll go too.

Then, on a whole,
I shall be happy indeed,
Because, with a shoe
Real and true,
I shall kill the true centipede ­-
My lost soul!...

The other day indeed,
With my shoe, on the wall,
I killed a centipede
Which was not there at all.
How can that be?
It's very simple, you see -
Just the beginning of D. T.

When the pink alligator
And the tiger without a head
Begin to take stature
And demanded to be fed,
As I have no shoes
Fit to kill those,
I think I'll start thinking:
Should I stop drinking?

But it really doesn't matter...
Am I thinner or fatter
Because this is this?
Would I be wiser or better
If life were other than this is?

No, nothing is right.
Your love might
Make me better than I
Can be or can try.
But we never know
Darling, I don't know
If the sugar of your heart
Would not turn out candy...
So I let my heart smart
And I drink brandy.

Then the centipede come
Without trouble.
I can see them well.
Or even double.
I'll see them home
With my shoe,
And, when they all go to hell,
I'll go too.

Then, on a whole,
I shall be happy indeed,
Because, with a shoe
Real and true,
I shall kill the true centipede ­-
My lost soul!...

NOCTURNO DE DIA

...Não: o que tenho é sono.
O quê? Tanto cansaço por causa das responsabilidades,
Tanta amargura por causa de talvez se não ser célebre
Tanto desenvolvimento de opiniões sobre a imortalidade...
O que tenho é sono, meu velho, sono...
Deixem-me ao menos ter sono; quem sabe que mais terei?