Emoções e Sentimentos

NOCTURNO DE DIA

...Não: o que tenho é sono.
O quê? Tanto cansaço por causa das responsabilidades,
Tanta amargura por causa de talvez se não ser célebre
Tanto desenvolvimento de opiniões sobre a imortalidade...
O que tenho é sono, meu velho, sono...
Deixem-me ao menos ter sono; quem sabe que mais terei?

Não ter deveres, nem horas certas, nem realidades...
Ser uma ave humana
Que passe haleyonica sobre a intransigência do mundo —
Ganhando o pão da sua noite com o suor da fronte dos outros —
Faz-tudo triste
No coliseu com lágrimas,
E compère antigo, um pouco mais cheio que Vénus de Milo,
Na insubsistência dos acasos.
E um pouco de sol, ao menos, para os sonhos onde não vivo.

Não ter deveres, nem horas certas, nem realidades...
Ser uma ave humana
Que passe haleyonica sobre a intransigência do mundo —
Ganhando o pão da sua noite com o suor da fronte dos outros —
Faz-tudo triste
No coliseu com lágrimas,
E compère antigo, um pouco mais cheio que Vénus de Milo,
Na insubsistência dos acasos.
E um pouco de sol, ao menos, para os sonhos onde não vivo.

O abismo é o muro que tenho
Ser eu não tem um tamanho.

O abismo é o muro que tenho
Ser eu não tem um tamanho.

Tell me again the music of that tale
Thy nurse wit sang so oft by my soul's bed,
Whose words and persons from my memory fade,
But in the melody remembered.

Thou mightst shift all the pawns of that told game
And, so the music made it far off be,
I shall still hear the tale as if the same,
Far bark on seas of the same melody.

What fairy castles and closed beauties lie
On moonlight of not‑life away from where
Loss is, truth kills, what charms must be put by,
And but the still‑to‑be keeps fresh & fair.

What matter the song, so by it the soul weeps
Lost kinship with its antenatal sleeps?

Tell me again the music of that tale
Thy nurse wit sang so oft by my soul's bed,
Whose words and persons from my memory fade,
But in the melody remembered.

Thou mightst shift all the pawns of that told game
And, so the music made it far off be,
I shall still hear the tale as if the same,
Far bark on seas of the same melody.

What fairy castles and closed beauties lie
On moonlight of not‑life away from where
Loss is, truth kills, what charms must be put by,
And but the still‑to‑be keeps fresh & fair.

What matter the song, so by it the soul weeps
Lost kinship with its antenatal sleeps?

O guardanapo dobrado
Quer dizer que se não volta.
Tenho o coração atado:
Vê se a tua mão mo solta.

Há dois dias que não vejo
Modo de tornar-te a ver.
Se outros também te não vissem,
Desejava sem sofrer.

Há dois dias que não vejo
Modo de tornar-te a ver.
Se outros também te não vissem,
Desejava sem sofrer.

Há dois dias que não vejo
Modo de tornar-te a ver.
Se outros também te não vissem,
Desejava sem sofrer.

I have outwatched the Lesser Wain, and seen
The remnant stars grow pale; but the used night
Has to the thought that used it sterile been,
Nor lost that use by pressure of delight.

My fixed, impatient thought no reason read;
What I scarce read my unthought thought made stray;
My soul between the living and the dead
Was a blown vapour, without place or way.

What the morn brought or took I cannot tell,
That had no use to bring or use to find.
All night I lay under the barren spell.
The day cannot dispel what the void wind

Ruinous built in the shorn night: its glow
Can but the night's made desert brightly show.

I have outwatched the Lesser Wain, and seen
The remnant stars grow pale; but the used night
Has to the thought that used it sterile been,
Nor lost that use by pressure of delight.

My fixed, impatient thought no reason read;
What I scarce read my unthought thought made stray;
My soul between the living and the dead
Was a blown vapour, without place or way.

What the morn brought or took I cannot tell,
That had no use to bring or use to find.
All night I lay under the barren spell.
The day cannot dispel what the void wind

Ruinous built in the shorn night: its glow
Can but the night's made desert brightly show.

Comes melão às dentadas
Porque assim não deve ser.
Não sei se essas gargalhadas
Me fazem rir ou sofrer.

Sorrow came and wept
By my side.
Slow and light she stept
As I walked towards God
By my side.
But I can never find that Great Abode,
And there is darkness in Descried.

Sorrow came and wept
By my side.
Slow and light she stept
As I walked towards God
By my side.
But I can never find that Great Abode,
And there is darkness in Descried.

Ah, abram-me outra realidade!
Quero ter, como Blake, a contiguidade dos anjos
E ter visões por almoço.
Quero encontrar as fadas na rua!
Quero desimaginar-me deste mundo feito com garras,
Desta civilização feita com pregos.
Quero viver como uma bandeira à brisa,
Símbolo de qualquer coisa no alto de uma coisa qualquer!

Depois encerrem-me onde queiram.
Meu coração verdadeiro continuará velando
Pano brasonado a esfinges,
No alto do mastro das visões
Aos quatro ventos do Mistério.
O Norte — o que todos querem
O Sul — o que todos desejam
O Este — de onde tudo vem
O Oeste — aonde tudo finda
— Os quatro ventos do místico ar da civilização
— Os quatro modos de não ter razão, e de entender o mundo

Tenho pena até... nem sei...
Do próprio mal que passei
Pois passei quando passou.

Dá-me um sorriso daqueles
Que te não servem de nada
Como se dá às crianças
Uma caixa esvaziada.

Todos lá vão para a festa
Com um grande azul de céu.
Nada resta, nada resta...
Resta sim, que resta eu.

Morena dos olhos baços
Velados de não sei quê,
No mundo há falta de braços
Para o que o teu olhar vê.

Thou needst not scorn me. All my praise of thee
Though't be of that which opens men's desire
(Being of thy beauty), from desire is free.
My flame upon thine altars has no fire.

Beauty should beauty mate, lest by addition
It do subtraction suffer. So I name
Thy true mate beautiful. Thus my perdition
Myself desire and mine own love disclaim.

That this renouncement of the very thought
Of thy possible love, were't such or no,
Gives pain, is sure; yet the pain given does not
From the renouncement, but its reason, flow.

The gods that fated me not beautiful
Fated this just renouncement possible.

Trazes uma cruz no peito.
Não sei se é por devoção.
Antes tivesse o jeito
De ter lá um coração.

Now are no Janus' temple‑doors thrown wide
To utter thougts of war upon the land.
Now doth no double facing God divide
Him from himself, that sight of him may brand
The symbol of opposed things upon
Our hearts that at our eyes on him are thrown.
Now do no pagan cults tremble at Mars' name
Because bad‑auguring birds like clouds have flown
O'er nations' frontiers, nor do oracles frame
Strange answers unto ears of armoured chiefs,
Replies that leave perplexed their perplexed eyes
That know not whether that heart‑pang they hear
Is the first grief heralding their peoples' griefs
Or the strange cold that the Gods' mysteries
Speak to his soul that is to conquest near.

No. All is dead that wreathed war round with Gods.
Nor omens mute, nor the foiled sacrifice,
No dim words spoken by spilt blood on sods.
Nay, nor the later sense that vice and sloth,
When in a people's heart they nestle both
Do on them call the wrath of heaven, us move.
Our souls are void, like a stage mummer's cries
And our hate and our love mock hate and love.

Something of coldness, like the coming winter,
Crosses our autumn like a profecy.
Round our leaves now no swallows circle and twitter.
No more, no more, shall we heart‑wholesome be.
There is a sadness that with us doth stay
Like a billetted guest, and far away
Our ultimate death awaits us like a sea.

Alas! that even the poesy of wars
Should, like a tired thing, have gone where things go.
Alas! alas! that we have come thus far
Knowing still the same nothing that we know,
To meet more than ourselves, nor no throe
That shall be herald of a newer man.
And ever as the old woes the cold new woe
Fills with its deathless measure our life's span.

No, even the Christian manner of love or hate
Is dead. No God that lives in us survives
The winter in us that snow‑kills God and Fate
And has iced o'er the rivers of our lives.
With cuirass and with pike we laid aside
All that made battle worth the death in it.
Our science‑made war‑gestures now deride
The great eternal things that war doth fit
With helm and armour.
With mortal pomp yet pomp. We are on death's side.

All is as if were not part of it.
All clashes, rings and turmoils as if far.
The foiled imagining within our wit
Ousts war's clear image with bare thought of war.
Our plans are cold, our courage cold, our eyes
When they look inwards dream but the far plain
And vague, picture‑seen faces and their pain
Touches no sense of ours, nor do dreamed cries
Rise in us. What cold thing has become of
Our very hatred? What way has strength gone?
We die as if the sky were not above
Our heads and beneath us sand, grass and stone.

The great eternal presence of all things
No longer doth with us collaborate
To lift our hearts up on invisible wings
And bid us tremble at the thrill of Fate.
The possible fall of empires doth no more
Touch us with that great and mysterious dread
That John on Pathmos saw rise o'er his head
Like a space‑filling sea without a shore.

Alas! our nobler fear has gone away
Where our weariness pointed. We are blind
And learned to blindness. Our wild gestures stray
From us like leaves that fall far off with the wind,
And we fight clearly, coldly, night and day.

These things I thought, knowing that far behind
My visible horizon war was slave
Of that Invisible Master who doth wave
His speechless hand o'er continents and seas
And men like reaped things fall, and the blind wind
With groping hands that in the night are blind
Touches the dead men's faces' mysteries.

This I thought when, lo! before me there was
A door of iron, or what iron seemed,
An unsized portal, and its live‑seeming lock
Seemed all the uses of a lock to mock.
To see that door was to know none could pass
Through it, nor could its other‑side be dreamed.

A ribbon of broad stairs led up to it
But had no meaning, like a laugh unseen,
I looked and the door seemed to sway as hit
By blows, but no blows fell on it. That screen
Was interposed between me and no scene,
Yet, like an eye staring from out the night,
It touched my heart cold with its iron mean.
And this was not in space nor in a light.

Somewhere in me where dreams do themselves show
And have an inner meaning God doth know,
The door was set, and it seemed to my soul
That there since some inner eternity
It ever had been and I something had seen,
Yet half forgot, that like a half‑shown scroll,
Concealed its sense in what it showed to me.

And lo! as my heart looked, the door grew clear
As a near‑lit thing seen in a black night,
And a great sense of a great coming fear
Was fear already in my heart's affright.
Then as I looked I saw - yet it did seem
That in my vision that had ever been -
From beneath the strange door down the steps flow
A string of silent blood, that step by step,
Fell with a motion desolate and slow.

The thin red stream seemed conscious of its course
Though its course seemed to be none, but to fall.
I looked and it fell ever, with a force
Of relinquishment to its fall, a knell
To some hope in me, and the blood
That ever was but a small line did flood
All my pained soul and made it red. The spell
Of its thin redness spreade o'er my thought's mood
And all my thoughts became a great red wall
Set up in front of what in me doth brood.

Then everything shifted, yet was the same.
I looked on as one who sees a child's game
And finds its eyes at interest in it
And knows not why. A sense of end did hit
My power of having feelings with a rain
That did with deep red all my dim soul stain
As it had stained that soul.

Then all the outer world was dashed to night
And, though no floor remained, no sides, no light
To that space‑missed new world, set far from being,
Yet by some clearer virtue of my seeing
All I saw was without nor left nor right
With a name to it, without a place
Even in itself, without an I to see.
The mere great door and the red blood's thin trace
And all the rest was void and mystery.

Then all again seemed changing unto some
New, unimaginable and fearful thing.
The door and that blood‑line seemed to come
A strange new‑featured Face looking out through
The Universe's whole frame, traversing
It like light an invisible glass - a wing
Belonging to no bird our thoughts construe.

Then the door seemed to recede - nay, to have
Receded, when I knew not, nor was there
A when, for Time seem'd as seems a far wave
On a wide sea, something gone past. The bare
Eternal door seemed to have gone to the end
Of a visible infinity, and all
That now remained on which my soul could spend
Its terror was the blood ever at its fall.

Then, though still the same small line of red,
The blood seeemed to grow glass and in it I saw
A mighty river full of strange things - dead
Men, children, wrecks of bridges, cities, thrones,
And still the line was a small red line, (...)
Of other meaning than that
That before God for the clear world atones.

But the (...) visions in that line contained
Seemed wide as space. The red line seemed a slit
In a thin door through which our eyes can see
Large fields, a city and the whole sky stained
With clouds, and all this in the line could be;
And from some unknown where I looked on it.

It seemed the edge of a cube opening
Sideways to sides of visions, more and more.
Now and then across its glass - like being a wing
Passed a tremor ran over everything
That had in it a clear and tragic being.
Then ceased. And from, past space, the door
Still held my unconscious consciousness of seeing.

It seemed sometimes a bright, red moving veil
And through it as through a stained window I guessed
A night and stars on a vague pale day pressed,
On a same horizon desolate and pale.

Then, as I stared, suddenly before me,
Like a fan suddenly opened, the blood‑line
Took space from side to side, leaving naught to me
Left or right of it. Its red (...) fact
Became a red Niagara, a cataract.
But there were no steps, nothing: it did fall
As if drawn in the air, over no edge, and all
Was this and this was its own mystery.

Then lo! over the edge, no longer now,
But empires rolled, and I saw Greece and Rome
Pass. And still over the eternal flow
Reddened from left to right my inner sight's home
Of seeing. And all like to God's blood did come
Like a great rain off a huge thorn‑crowned brow.

And I saw more and more strange empires roll
Down and some I knew not, nor seeing them, guessed.
Awhile their falling the fall's brink caressed
Then they sunk down somewhere within my soul,
And my soul was the soul of all the world,
And from my (...) eyes that saw all this
Suddenly I felt, as if a flag unfurled,
God in me look out at these mysteries.

My eyes seemed windows of another sight
Of someone set behind my soul in the night
Looking through my eyes and my sight, mine own
Was but a glass those unknown eyes looked through,
And still the vision was blood falling down
In cataracts into Mystery, red and slow.

I became one with world and Fate and God,
And the great River that came on and fell
Let me see through its veil of (...) blood
The stars shine and a vague moonlight, then fell
Something from me. The cataract came more near
To my sight; then it seemed into mine eyes
To creep to become with them and the fear
To pass behind them into some soul (...).

Then all that did remain was the stars light
And again in the dark infinity
My pity and my dread alone with me
And my dream's meaning like a paling night.