Vida e Existência

Whene'er thou dost undo
Thy dark, strange hair before the wind
And the wind takes it up and makes it woo
Tumult and violence in the way it sweeps
Along the air, mingling, unmingling, undefined
In the snake‑like madness it keeps.

Then I do know
That somewhere whence dreams come
And passions go,
Somewhere in that world contrary to this,
Yet landscaped, peopled as this is,
In a great southern sea
There is a storm and a hurled wreck
On rising rocks that cannot reck
For human misery.

The two things are but one.
Thy floating hair is that great ship undone
In a tossed, turbulent, dashed ocean.
Neither precedeth nor doth cause the other
Nor are the two as brother and brother,
But absolutely one, samely the same,
They have somehow an equal name
Where speech is of the essence of what is.

A real sight, like God's, should see the kiss
Of the wind through thy hair and the far storm
One thing, - ­yet two things because we see two
When we conceive them one, the double form
Coming to oneness in what we construe.

Therefore I grieve when thou letst thy hair take
The wind upon its long, thin, changing fingers,
For that sight of me that translates that to
The sterner meaning in what world I know
Only through what in me is not here awake, -
That sight of that mad wreck visibly lingers
And does in my imagination ache.

Alas! all things are linked, and we know not
Half the contents of our each casual thought.
We never see save one little dreamed bit
Of each feeling we have; we pass through it
Like rapid travellers that scarce can see
What they pass by and what they see see erringly.

What is the meaning of my writing this?
Nothing, save that this is,
I know not why, something I know and must
Utter, the purpose of it being with
That secret Being that made my body of dust
Bear my soul's ignored presence, and that breath
Of life that survives my each moment's death.

Chalice of my communion
        With the lost thing that gleams!
Communion‑bond of union
        Between me and my dreams!
O chalice of love's most!
In thy wine, earth's wine's ghost
        To lips that are God's flowers,
My soul has dipped the host
        Of my diviner hours.

My lips are as lips kissed.
        My sad soul happy sings.
O shining through the mist
        Of tremulous angels' wings!
I feel me God's moon's node,
A child again, outside life's road,
        Remembering how I found me
When I awoke from God
        And felt the world around me.

Chalice of my communion
        With the lost thing that gleams!
Communion‑bond of union
        Between me and my dreams!
O chalice of love's most!
In thy wine, earth's wine's ghost
        To lips that are God's flowers,
My soul has dipped the host
        Of my diviner hours.

My lips are as lips kissed.
        My sad soul happy sings.
O shining through the mist
        Of tremulous angels' wings!
I feel me God's moon's node,
A child again, outside life's road,
        Remembering how I found me
When I awoke from God
        And felt the world around me.

Me concedam os deuses lá do alto
Da sua calma que não custa ou serve
        Ter uma vida tal qual eles
        Se fossem homens a teriam...
Dominando desejos e esperanças
Não para ser comprado pelas ínguas
        A maldizer da (...)…

A tua irmã é pequena,
Quando tiver tua idade,
Transferirei minha pena
Ou fico só com metade?

Se em verdade não sabes (nem sustentas
Que sabes) que há na vida mais que a vida,
Porque com tanto esforço e cura tanta,
        Operoso a não vives?

Porque, sem paraíso que apeteças,
Amontoas riquezas, nem as gastas,
É para teu cadáver que amontoas?
        Gozas menos que ganhas.

Ah, se não tens que esperes, salvo a morte,
Não cures mais que do preciso esforço
Para passar incólume na vida
        De (...)

Sim, gozas. Mas mais rico és que ditoso
Se só para o que perdes gozas,
Menos te o esforço oneraria,
        Sem ele. (...)

Ah servidão irreprimível, nada
Da vida breve subsiste, que sabes
Que morre toda, e gasta-se nas obras
Egoísta de um futuro que não é seu.

Mas respondes-me: E os poemas que escreves
A quem os dás futuro? A obra obrigas
E o homem só por semear semeia
        O que o Destino manda.

Se em verdade não sabes (nem sustentas
Que sabes) que há na vida mais que a vida,
Porque com tanto esforço e cura tanta,
        Operoso a não vives?

Porque, sem paraíso que apeteças,
Amontoas riquezas, nem as gastas,
É para teu cadáver que amontoas?
        Gozas menos que ganhas.

Ah, se não tens que esperes, salvo a morte,
Não cures mais que do preciso esforço
Para passar incólume na vida
        De (...)

Sim, gozas. Mas mais rico és que ditoso
Se só para o que perdes gozas,
Menos te o esforço oneraria,
        Sem ele. (...)

Ah servidão irreprimível, nada
Da vida breve subsiste, que sabes
Que morre toda, e gasta-se nas obras
Egoísta de um futuro que não é seu.

Mas respondes-me: E os poemas que escreves
A quem os dás futuro? A obra obrigas
E o homem só por semear semeia
        O que o Destino manda.

Se em verdade não sabes (nem sustentas
Que sabes) que há na vida mais que a vida,
Porque com tanto esforço e cura tanta,
        Operoso a não vives?

Porque, sem paraíso que apeteças,
Amontoas riquezas, nem as gastas,
É para teu cadáver que amontoas?
        Gozas menos que ganhas.

Ah, se não tens que esperes, salvo a morte,
Não cures mais que do preciso esforço
Para passar incólume na vida
        De (...)

Sim, gozas. Mas mais rico és que ditoso
Se só para o que perdes gozas,
Menos te o esforço oneraria,
        Sem ele. (...)

Ah servidão irreprimível, nada
Da vida breve subsiste, que sabes
Que morre toda, e gasta-se nas obras
Egoísta de um futuro que não é seu.

Mas respondes-me: E os poemas que escreves
A quem os dás futuro? A obra obrigas
E o homem só por semear semeia
        O que o Destino manda.

Se em verdade não sabes (nem sustentas
Que sabes) que há na vida mais que a vida,
Porque com tanto esforço e cura tanta,
        Operoso a não vives?

Porque, sem paraíso que apeteças,
Amontoas riquezas, nem as gastas,
É para teu cadáver que amontoas?
        Gozas menos que ganhas.

Ah, se não tens que esperes, salvo a morte,
Não cures mais que do preciso esforço
Para passar incólume na vida
        De (...)

Sim, gozas. Mas mais rico és que ditoso
Se só para o que perdes gozas,
Menos te o esforço oneraria,
        Sem ele. (...)

Ah servidão irreprimível, nada
Da vida breve subsiste, que sabes
Que morre toda, e gasta-se nas obras
Egoísta de um futuro que não é seu.

Mas respondes-me: E os poemas que escreves
A quem os dás futuro? A obra obrigas
E o homem só por semear semeia
        O que o Destino manda.

Quero, da vida, só não conhecê-la.
Bastam, a quem o Fado pôs na vida,
        As formas sucessórias
        Da vida insubsistente.
Pouco serve pensar que são eternos
Os nossos nadas com que na alma amamos
         Os outros pobres nadas
        Que (...)
Gratos aos deuses, menos pela incerta
Posse do sonhado certo, recolhamos
        A mercê passageira
        De instantes que não duram.

Quero, da vida, só não conhecê-la.
Bastam, a quem o Fado pôs na vida,
        As formas sucessórias
        Da vida insubsistente.
Pouco serve pensar que são eternos
Os nossos nadas com que na alma amamos
         Os outros pobres nadas
        Que (...)
Gratos aos deuses, menos pela incerta
Posse do sonhado certo, recolhamos
        A mercê passageira
        De instantes que não duram.

Quero, da vida, só não conhecê-la.
Bastam, a quem o Fado pôs na vida,
        As formas sucessórias
        Da vida insubsistente.
Pouco serve pensar que são eternos
Os nossos nadas com que na alma amamos
         Os outros pobres nadas
        Que (...)
Gratos aos deuses, menos pela incerta
Posse do sonhado certo, recolhamos
        A mercê passageira
        De instantes que não duram.

Quero, da vida, só não conhecê-la.
Bastam, a quem o Fado pôs na vida,
        As formas sucessórias
        Da vida insubsistente.
Pouco serve pensar que são eternos
Os nossos nadas com que na alma amamos
         Os outros pobres nadas
        Que (...)
Gratos aos deuses, menos pela incerta
Posse do sonhado certo, recolhamos
        A mercê passageira
        De instantes que não duram.

Somewhere where I shall never live
        A palace garden bowers
Such beauty that dreams of it grieve.

There, lining walks immemorial,
        Great antenatal flowers
My lost life before God recall.

There I was happy and the child
        That had cool shadows
Wherein to feel sweetly exiled.

They took all these true things away.
        O my lost meadows!
My childhood before Night and Day!

Somewhere where I shall never live
        A palace garden bowers
Such beauty that dreams of it grieve.

There, lining walks immemorial,
        Great antenatal flowers
My lost life before God recall.

There I was happy and the child
        That had cool shadows
Wherein to feel sweetly exiled.

They took all these true things away.
        O my lost meadows!
My childhood before Night and Day!

Fui passear no jardim
Sem saber se tinha flores
Assim passeia na vida
Quem tem ou não tem amores.

Fui passear no jardim
Sem saber se tinha flores
Assim passeia na vida
Quem tem ou não tem amores.

II

Dói viver, nada sou que valha ser.
Tardo-me porque penso e tudo rui.
Tento saber, porque tentar é ser.
Longe de isto ser tudo, tudo flui.

Mágoa que, indiferente, faz viver.
Névoa que, diferente, em tudo influi.
O exílio nada do que foi sequer
Ilude, fixa, dá, faz ou possui.

Assim, nocturna, a áreas indecisas,
O prelúdio perdido traz à mente
O que das ilhas mortas foi só brisas,

E o que a memória análoga dedica
Ao sonho, e onde, lua na corrente,
Não passa o sonho e a água inútil fica.

II

Dói viver, nada sou que valha ser.
Tardo-me porque penso e tudo rui.
Tento saber, porque tentar é ser.
Longe de isto ser tudo, tudo flui.

Mágoa que, indiferente, faz viver.
Névoa que, diferente, em tudo influi.
O exílio nada do que foi sequer
Ilude, fixa, dá, faz ou possui.

Assim, nocturna, a áreas indecisas,
O prelúdio perdido traz à mente
O que das ilhas mortas foi só brisas,

E o que a memória análoga dedica
Ao sonho, e onde, lua na corrente,
Não passa o sonho e a água inútil fica.

Nada me dizem vossos deuses mortos
Que eu haja de aprender. O Crucifixo
        Sem amor e sem ódio
        Do meu (...) afasto.

Que tenho eu com as crenças que o Cristo
Curvado o torso a mim, latino, morra?
        Mais com o sol me entendo
        Que com essas verdades.

Que o sejam... Deus a mim não só foi dado
Que uma visão das cousas que há na terra
        E uma razão incerta,
        E um saber que há deuses...

Sem clepsidra ou relógio o tempo escorre
E nós com ele, nada o árbitro escravo
        Pode contra o destino
Nem contra os deuses o mortal desejo
Hoje, quais servos com ausentes deuses,
Na alheia casa, um dia sem o juiz,
        Bebamos e comamos.
Será para amanhã o que aconteça.

Tombai mancebos, o vinho em nobre taça
E o braço nu com que o entornais fique
        No lembrando olhar
Como uma água que parece vinho!
Sim, heróis somos todos amanhã.
Hoje adiemos. E na erguida taça
       O roxo vinho espelhe
Depois — porque a noite nunca falta.

Sem clepsidra ou relógio o tempo escorre
E nós com ele, nada o árbitro escravo
        Pode contra o destino
Nem contra os deuses o mortal desejo
Hoje, quais servos com ausentes deuses,
Na alheia casa, um dia sem o juiz,
        Bebamos e comamos.
Será para amanhã o que aconteça.

Tombai mancebos, o vinho em nobre taça
E o braço nu com que o entornais fique
        No lembrando olhar
Como uma água que parece vinho!
Sim, heróis somos todos amanhã.
Hoje adiemos. E na erguida taça
       O roxo vinho espelhe
Depois — porque a noite nunca falta.

Before light was, light's bright idea lit
        God's thought of it,
And, because through God's thought light's thought did pass,
        Light ever was,
And from beyond eternity became
        The living flame
That trembles into life and reddens with
        Our life's soul‑width.

Before light was, when yet the night was queen
        O'er what had been,
In God's realized prescience it could be
        Light from eternity,
For no time enters into God's thoughts or
        Their spaceless Hour.

Take thou therefore, my Song, from light the mood
        Of being, and brood,
Like the Dove unbegot, over the abyss
        Of consciousness,
Taking as thy true part that thought of God
        Whence light issued.

Let my words burst into that divine flame
        That lights its name
Of each thing from within with ultimate meaning.
        Though earth be screening
With fixed appearance the Sun in each Thing,
        Bear, on thy wing
High‑lifted, rays from the unrisen Sun
        Whence life is spun.

Soar out, my Song, out of despair and night
        And catch that light
Ere it appear, from neath the horizon
        Of action,
Borne out of dreams by intuition bright
        Of endless light.

Though none believe nor any understand,
        Yet feel thee fanned
With those breeze‑breaths that come up with the morn
        From the Unborn.
Soar like a lark into the coming day
        And bear thy way
Into the possibility of noon
        Hid in the dawn.

No matter that none know what thy words speak.
        A day shall break
Out of eternity as each day bright
        Out of each night.
Thy wings shall touch the slanting light of dawn
        And, upwards drawn
By being light‑struck, shall to light be near
        When light's yet far.

Hope is thy ready and high‑soaring flight
        Out of the night,
Joy is thy touching of the first high rays
        That day betrays,
Life is the course thy flight sequesters from
        Earth and its nightly doom,
And these three things are one in thy belief
        That pain is brief.

II

Thou, unseeen Bird, essence of spiritual light,
        That yet art bright
With the epitome of the outer shine,
        Thou that art mine
And yet not mine but general to the earth,
        Wings of rebirth,
Whose song, though in me heard, participates
        Of all that all elates,
Thou point of meeting of me with the wings
        Hidden in all things,
Thou breath, thou vapour, seen and not seen, of
        Some abstract love,
Thou exhalation of the prisoned flight
        Of all things' weight,
Thou that in me art fear, mad splendour, all
        To ache and enthral,

Attract me, take me, o pure flight, and rise
        With me in thine eyes,
Lost, cast, unpetalled and divine, up to
        What thou dost woo!

O Spirit‑Lark that wakest ere the morn
        And art reborn
At each recoming of the sun, and art
        The wiser part
Of all that message is to our low eyes
        Of what shall rise!
Life‑weightless Bird that no meads can attract,
        But that must act
Its fate in air, above our marshes sad
        And meads low‑laid,
In free heights communing with the Great Horn
        As yet unborn!
O sterile Bird that hast no nest nor home
        But what shall come,
That hast no song save in the heights above
        Nests, homes and love,
Nor any thought save for the coming day,
        Though far away
It seem to those who measure yet thy flight
        But by its height
And not by its intention, that is carried
        From life and married
To those diviner hours that winged things
        Find with their wings!
O Bird of ruthless song and untold wishes,
        Whose high flight reaches
Heights not of earth, but of pure air, encumbered
        With no joys weighed and numbered!
Take all my heart in thy purpose of going
        And make the flowing
Down to earth of my song be like thy song,
        Something strange, strong
With distance, eerily half‑perishing
        From farness! Sing,
And let my heart be what thou meanst with singings
        My life with winging.
My hopes and fears with th’tone wherewith thy note
        To me doth float
And the great purpose hidden in my fate
        With thy mere height!

My heart shall thus be happy even if pained,
        Free even if strained
To keep that height of joy whence tremble down
        Thy songs to our own.
My soul may thus be happy, full and free.
        Oh, happily
Raise me from me and lift my life unto
        That thou dost woo -
The light, the sky, the distance and the morn,
        Till I be unborn
Again to pure dispersion in the seas
        Of the high breeze
That speaks to thee, ere light be born, of light,
        Till the delight
Of without being being shall make me
        Song and sky be!

Before light was, light's bright idea lit
        God's thought of it,
And, because through God's thought light's thought did pass,
        Light ever was,
And from beyond eternity became
        The living flame
That trembles into life and reddens with
        Our life's soul‑width.

Before light was, when yet the night was queen
        O'er what had been,
In God's realized prescience it could be
        Light from eternity,
For no time enters into God's thoughts or
        Their spaceless Hour.

Take thou therefore, my Song, from light the mood
        Of being, and brood,
Like the Dove unbegot, over the abyss
        Of consciousness,
Taking as thy true part that thought of God
        Whence light issued.

Let my words burst into that divine flame
        That lights its name
Of each thing from within with ultimate meaning.
        Though earth be screening
With fixed appearance the Sun in each Thing,
        Bear, on thy wing
High‑lifted, rays from the unrisen Sun
        Whence life is spun.

Soar out, my Song, out of despair and night
        And catch that light
Ere it appear, from neath the horizon
        Of action,
Borne out of dreams by intuition bright
        Of endless light.

Though none believe nor any understand,
        Yet feel thee fanned
With those breeze‑breaths that come up with the morn
        From the Unborn.
Soar like a lark into the coming day
        And bear thy way
Into the possibility of noon
        Hid in the dawn.

No matter that none know what thy words speak.
        A day shall break
Out of eternity as each day bright
        Out of each night.
Thy wings shall touch the slanting light of dawn
        And, upwards drawn
By being light‑struck, shall to light be near
        When light's yet far.

Hope is thy ready and high‑soaring flight
        Out of the night,
Joy is thy touching of the first high rays
        That day betrays,
Life is the course thy flight sequesters from
        Earth and its nightly doom,
And these three things are one in thy belief
        That pain is brief.

II

Thou, unseeen Bird, essence of spiritual light,
        That yet art bright
With the epitome of the outer shine,
        Thou that art mine
And yet not mine but general to the earth,
        Wings of rebirth,
Whose song, though in me heard, participates
        Of all that all elates,
Thou point of meeting of me with the wings
        Hidden in all things,
Thou breath, thou vapour, seen and not seen, of
        Some abstract love,
Thou exhalation of the prisoned flight
        Of all things' weight,
Thou that in me art fear, mad splendour, all
        To ache and enthral,

Attract me, take me, o pure flight, and rise
        With me in thine eyes,
Lost, cast, unpetalled and divine, up to
        What thou dost woo!

O Spirit‑Lark that wakest ere the morn
        And art reborn
At each recoming of the sun, and art
        The wiser part
Of all that message is to our low eyes
        Of what shall rise!
Life‑weightless Bird that no meads can attract,
        But that must act
Its fate in air, above our marshes sad
        And meads low‑laid,
In free heights communing with the Great Horn
        As yet unborn!
O sterile Bird that hast no nest nor home
        But what shall come,
That hast no song save in the heights above
        Nests, homes and love,
Nor any thought save for the coming day,
        Though far away
It seem to those who measure yet thy flight
        But by its height
And not by its intention, that is carried
        From life and married
To those diviner hours that winged things
        Find with their wings!
O Bird of ruthless song and untold wishes,
        Whose high flight reaches
Heights not of earth, but of pure air, encumbered
        With no joys weighed and numbered!
Take all my heart in thy purpose of going
        And make the flowing
Down to earth of my song be like thy song,
        Something strange, strong
With distance, eerily half‑perishing
        From farness! Sing,
And let my heart be what thou meanst with singings
        My life with winging.
My hopes and fears with th’tone wherewith thy note
        To me doth float
And the great purpose hidden in my fate
        With thy mere height!

My heart shall thus be happy even if pained,
        Free even if strained
To keep that height of joy whence tremble down
        Thy songs to our own.
My soul may thus be happy, full and free.
        Oh, happily
Raise me from me and lift my life unto
        That thou dost woo -
The light, the sky, the distance and the morn,
        Till I be unborn
Again to pure dispersion in the seas
        Of the high breeze
That speaks to thee, ere light be born, of light,
        Till the delight
Of without being being shall make me
        Song and sky be!