Alma

1.
Little flower that wert on the hill,
Where art thou to-day?
Thou that saw'st thyself in the rill
Art thou gone away?
Ah, now I see that thou art dead
And that thy charm from us is fled.

Quem fui é externo a mim. Se lembro, vejo;
E ver é ser alheio. Meu passado
        Só por  visão relembro.
Aquilo mesmo que senti me é claro.
Alheia é a alma antiga; o que me sinto
         Chegou hoje à estalagem.
Quem pode conhecer, entre tanto erro
De modos de sentir-se, a exacta forma
         Que tem para consigo?

Seldom have I so inly comprehended
With a deep sense so awful and so rude
My complete being's complete solitude
In all its arid loneliness extended

So wholly solitude, so much unblended
With aught else, good or ill, that might intrude
Upon its horror limitless and nude
Whereat my reason reels, not by (...) defended.
And save it from itself (…)

Se hás-de ser o que choras
Ter que ser, não o chores.
Se toda a mole imensa
Do mundo ser-te-á noite,
Aproveita este breve
Dia, e sem choro ou cura
Goza-o, contente por viveres
O pouco que te é dado.

Esse xaile que arranjaste,
Com que pareces mais alta
Dá ao teu corpo esse brio
Que à minha coragem falta.

My thoughts are something my soul fears.
        I tremble at my very glee.
        Sometimes I feel arrive in me
A dim, a cold. a sad, a fierce
        A lust‑like spirituality.

It makes me one with all the grass.
        My life takes colour at all flowers.
The breeze that seemeth loth to pass
        Shakes off red petals from my hours
        And my heart sulters without showers.

Then God becomes a vice of mine
        And divine feelings an embrace
That sinks my senses in its wine
        And leaves no outline in my ways
Of seeing God flower, grow and shine.

My thoughts and feelings mingle and form
        A vague and hot soul‑unity.
Like a sea that expects a storm,
        A lazy ache and fret make me
A murmur like a coming swarm.

My parched thoughts mix and occupy
        Their interpresences and swell
To each others' places. I descry
        Nought in me save impossible
Mixtures of many things all I.

I am a drunkard of my thoughts.
        My feelings' juice o'erruns my soul.
        My will becomes soaked in them all.
Then life stagnates a dream and rots
        To beauty in my verses' dole.

The day is glad and golden.
Over the sunhit beach
The waves do gladly embolden
Their crisp and clinging reach.

Would I were one as they
With the natural hour,
With the wide sunlit day
And the ancient sea's power.

I would not be here weeping
That I am not aught else,
My waking would be a sleeping
Like this of the sea swells

Not like an outcast from
A home I never knew
Would I be pining for home,
……

Not like a tossed sea‑weed
Between the wave and the wave,
And restless with a mute greed
For something I cannot have.

Something I cannot een dream,
Some spent life I know not...
Oh how fair would nature seem
Were it not for thought!

Dark is the golden day
Unto mine eyes that stare
Brightness and joy away
From sky and shore and here.

Dead is the changing sea,
The wind a monotone,
Oh ever to be he
That never is but alone,

I cannot dream of heaven,
Nor create one in the hour...
Pass, day, and ask not even
For my grateful eyes' dower...

Into a vision before me the world
Flowered, and it as when a flag, unfurled,
Suddenly shows unknown colours and signs.
        Into an unknown meaning, evident
And unknown ever, it outspread its lines
        Of meaning to my passive wonderment.
The outward and the inward became one.
Feelings and thoughts were visible in shapes,
And flowers and trees as feelings, thoughts. Great capes
Stood out of Soul, thrust into conscious seas,
And on all this a man‑sky spoke its breeze.

Each thing was linked into each other thing
By links of being past imagining,
But visible, as if the skeleton
Were visible and the flesh round it, each one
As if a separate thing visibly alone.

There was no difference between a tree
And an idea. Seeing a river be
And the exterior river were one thing.
The bird's soul and the motion of its wing
Were an inextricable oneness made.
And all this I saw, seeing not, dismayed
With the New God this vision told me of;
For this was aught I could not speak nor love
But a new sentiment not like all others,
Nought like the human feelings, men are brothers
In feeling, woke on my astonished spirit.
With a great suddenness did this disinherit
That thought that looks through mine eyes of the pelf
Of ordered seeing that maketh it itself.

O horror set with mad joy to appal!
O self‑transcendency of all!
O inner infinity of each thing, that now
Suddenly was made visible and local, though
No manner of speech to speak these things in words

Followed that vision! Sight whose sense absurds
Likeness of like, and makes disparity
Contiguous innerly to unity!

How to express what, seen, is not expressed
To the struck sight that sees it? How to know
What comes to senses' threshold to bestow
A visible ignorance upon the knowing?
How to obey the analogy‑behest,
Community in unity to prove
The intellectual meaning of to love,
Shipwrecking difference upon the sight
Renewed from God to Inwards infinite?

Nothing: the exterior world inner expressed,
The flower of the whole vision of the world
        Into its colour of absolutely meaning
In the night unfurled,
And therefore nought unfurling, abstract, that,
        Vision self‑screening,
Patent invisible fact.

Nothing: all,
And I centre of to recall,
        As if Seeing were a god.
The rest the presence of to see,
Hollow self‑sensed infinity,
        And all my being‑not‑souled‑to‑oneness trod
To fragments in my sight‑dishevelled sight.

This Night is Light.

Há uma cor que me persegue e que eu odeio,
Há uma cor que se insinua no meu medo.
        Porque é que as cores têm força
        De persistir na nossa alma,
                Como fantasmas?
Há uma cor que me persegue e hora a hora
A sua cor se torna a cor que é a minha alma.

Duas vezes jurei ser
O que julgo que sou,
Só para desconhecer
Que não sei para onde vou.

Beside a summer's day
        I lay me down and dreamed.
The light from far away
        In my withinned self gleamed,
An unreal true glow,
Spiritually somehow.

I saw the inner side
        Of summer, earth and morn.
I heard the rivers glide
        From Within. l was borne
To see, through mysteries,
How God everything is.

The motes of sun that dance
        Are audibly whispered.
All is an utterance.
        The sight may hear. I shed
Vision of things as things.
My thoughts are angels' wings.

The corpses of known hours
        In barks unsteered and left
Float, covered with mute flowers,
        Down my dream that is cleft
In banks of mystery ­-
This summer day and I.

And something like a greed
        And yet unlike a wish,
The power to have a need
        Which doth not needing reach,
But is dissolved again
Ere its sad joy reach pain,

A shadowy lightness woven
        Of the day and of me,
Like sparkling water driven
        Never but where we see,
A gap, a pause, a dim
Looking over things' rim,

Starts like a sudden flute
        Pastoral with tuneless notes
Out of the unseen root
        Of all my being denotes,
Spreads, till I feel it not,
O'er my lost sense of thought.

And lo! I am another.
        My senses taste not‑mine.
A hand my sight doth smother
        To a blind sight divine.
I am a lost tune, a mood
Of the finger‑tips of God.

So, like a child‑king crowned,
        I feel new with fear‑pride.
I am robed with sky and ground.
        My inmost soul's outside
Is sunlit seas and lands.
My dreams are seraphs' hands.

God knows. Lie we to sleep
        Contentedly somehow,
Smiling that we did weep,
        As at an overthrow
Of kingdoms the stars, deep
        In silence, smile nor know.

God knows. And an He knew not
        And were not, what of it?
No matter that we do not
        Our life with living fit.
Glad to have sleep and tears,
        Lullaby to our fears!

One day, Time having ceased,
        Our lives shall meet again,
From Place and Name released.
        Only that shall remain
Of each of us that may
Seem natural to that Day.

There we will newly love,
        Wondering at the old mood
With which love did us move,
        When pain and solitude
Were what each soul had got
For its contingent lot.

There, heaven being between us
        And touch a real thing,
The texture luminous
        Of our true lives will bring
God into our love like breath.
Nowhere will there be death.

The need to suffer and sigh,
        The inevitable cares,
The awaiting and the cry
        That goes from joy to tears -
These have no need to be
In love's eternity.

The hours shall make our love
        Grow younger, not more old.
Some trick of time shall move
        Wont even to truer gold,
Regret shall not be aught
Possible there to thought.

That region light‑suspended
        Under truer blue skies
Shall let our souls feel blended,
        Yet be true unities.
Nought shall have power to fret
Our hearts to tire of it.

A golden land where God
        Stayed a Day of His Time,
Not as the world, where not
        A moment did he abide,
And where His passing left
The sense of aught bereft.

My heart, that thinks of this,
        Pines, for it is nowhere,
And she that meets my bliss
        With her new old love there -
She is unreal as all
That to this verse I call.

Yet who knows? Perhaps this
        Is not wishing, but seeing.
Perhaps this love, this bliss,
        This conscious glad not‑being
Is some reality
Through fancy seen by me.

Perhaps it casts a spell
        From where it can be found.
What is impossible?
        Where is God's bourne and bound?
Why, if I dream this, may
Not this be mine one day?

Who knows what our dreams are?
        Who knows all that God makes?
Perhaps life doth but mar
        The immediate truth that takes
Its beauty from being dreamed.
Nothing eter merely seemed.

Somewhere where God is nearer
        These things are een now true.
Oh, let me be no fearer
        That this may not be so!
All is more strange than that
Small glimpse of it we get.

Mine eyes are wild with joy
        Because I have these thoughts.
They cannot tire nor cloy
        Because God ever allots
To each high thing the power
To weigh not on its hour.

My flower garden is
        Full of new flowers now.
My lips are kissed by bliss
        Because I know not how.
My heart fails and I swim
Within a luminous rim.

A halo of hope comes round
        My soul. I am that child
That cries: Lo! I have found
        This flower strange and wild.
The unknown flower I have
Grew on my dead dreams' grave.

A trembling sense of being
        More than my sense can hold,
A bird of feeling seeing
        The great, earth‑hidden gold
Of the approaching dawn,
A breath, a light, a swoon,

A presence interwoven
        With rays of other light,
A spell, a power untroven
        Of my more clear delight,
I faint, I fade, I seem
Myself to be my dream.

And if this be not so,
        Oh, God, make it now be!
Let me not find more woe
        Because I so dreamed Thee!
Let aught for which I pine
Merit being divine.

Let this resemble heaven
        And be my home for e'er,
Even if for e'er mean living
        But this hour really fair.
An hour in God shall be
Enough eternity.

Esse frio cumprimento
Tem ironia p’ra mim.
Porque é o mesmo movimento
Com que a gente diz que sim...

Há um doido na nossa voz
Ao falarmos, que prendemos:
É o mal-estar entre nós
Que vem de nos percebermos.

Vejo lágrimas luzir
Nos teus olhos de fingida.
É como quando à janela
Chegas, um pouco escondida.

Teus olhos poisam no chão
Para não me olhar de frente.
Tens vontade de sorrir
Ou de rir? É tão diferente!

Under a low and sullen sky,
Frowned on by lone winds that moan by
And palely sick for light from high
Till the landscape's soul doth sigh forever,
        Forever sigh,
A black and calmness‑haunted river,
That doth a town from itself sever,
Runs with an inner fear and shiver
Like a dim fate forever nigh,
        Nigher forever.

Ay, through that landscape lapsed from dream
Into a horrid truth doth gleam
That self‑absorbed, self‑empty stream
That bears a dream of dreams' emotion
        To emotion's dream!
Runs from a land whence is no motion
Towards a possible far ocean;
And they, whose eyes anguished sans motion
Bathe in it, take emotion's dream
        For dreams' emotion.

Trincaste, para o partir,
O retrós de costurar.
Quem não soubesse diria
Que o estavas a beijar.

Doce é o fruto à vista, e à boca amaro,
Breve é a vida ao tempo e longa à alma.
        A arte, com que todos,
—  Ora sem saber  virando os copos,
Ora, enchendo-os, consiste em nos ousarmos,
        Chegada a morte, despi-la.

No grande espaço de não haver nada
Que a noite finge, brilham mal os astros.
        Não há lua, e ainda bem.
Neste momento, Lídia, considero
Tudo, e um frio que não há me entra
        Na alma. Não existes.

Here in this wilderness
        Each tree and stone fills me
        With the sadness of a great glee.
God in His altogetherness
        Is whole‑part of each stone and tree.

An inner outward seeingness
        Makes my clear self unknown.
        (O Godfully alone!)
God in His overbeingness
        Survives His death each tree and every stone

Ay, in the barkness and clodfulness
        Of tree and sand and stone
        God is only His Own,
God in all His godfulness,
        Whose concrete soul's each thing's abstraction.

Tem um decote pequeno,
Um ar modesto e tranquilo;
Mas vá-se lá descobrir
Coisa pior do que aquilo!

O pescador do mar alto
Vem contente de pescar.
Se prometo, sempre falto:
Receio não agradar.