Tristeza e Melancolia

Oh for a less meaningless horizon than the land and the sea!
Oh for a rest from places and a lapse from the sense of times!
Waves, ever waves, to and fro … Ever waves roll, and we
What do we wait, what do we seek, what do we pause for and flee?
What in us lusts for more round us than the strech of minutes and climes?

Ah, and no bark to bear us towards Impossible, and that a real place,
An attainable place, full of the depths and rests of the Unattainable!
But ever the sea, the sea, like the passing of many a face...
Ever the sea, and the sea runs a restless and half-hearted race
Towards not the shore, nor the land, but what? Who can measure or tell?

No ship to bear us homeward, past earth and sea and the sky!
None to spread sails to a breeze blowing but not with a whither!
And ever, like a lost meaning, the sea never passing by,
Ever the measurable sea, sad as a formless cry,
And the most hearts can be is (to) be two and sorrow together!

To-morrow will tire us of all! But we lack heart to be tired indeed
The purpose our souls came for is lost and never stared at...
Let us at least by the shore construe our aches for a deed
Into a meaningless ache and a desolate and purposeless greed...
Become we one with the sea's lost purpose and dream and wish nothing
                                                                                                but that...

Seldom have I so inly comprehended
With a deep sense so awful and so rude
My complete being's complete solitude
In all its arid loneliness extended

So wholly solitude, so much unblended
With aught else, good or ill, that might intrude
Upon its horror limitless and nude
Whereat my reason reels, not by (...) defended.
And save it from itself (…)

Pobre Espanha, já sem ter
Alma onde ser!
Fragmento sobrevivente
De ti mesma, ente
De te perder!

Relembremos na hora
Em que em ti chora
O que não ouves em ti,
Aquele que foi
O herói em si
Do que em ti se perdeu de herói.

Fidalgo que toda a alma deu
Ao Rei e à Grei que o perdeu
No incêndio da hora estranha,
Saibamo-lo, alheios mas homens, chorar,
Com quem a alma da fidalguia da Espanha
Foi a enterrar.

Sorrow sits by my side
Fondling my careless hair.
She is the lady of golden
Gestures to silence beholden.
Only she does not deride
My dreams and what makes them fair.

Now she doth cease and whisper
The use of dreams to my soul.
She tells me they mean God's blessing
The spirit's shining releasing
From the world's weight and sister
To life's unchanging whole.

The day is sad as I am sad,
But that no moment can abate
That pang that is all I have had
To take with me and see and feel
While life goes by like a mere wheel.

No. Deeper things than skies and plains
Are dark and lower'd o'er in me.
My sorrows are more empty pains
Than of which plains landscapes can symbols be.
And my own [?] weight of life and self
Resembles nothing but itself.

Tarda o verão. No campo tributário
Da nossa esperança, não há sol bastante,
Nem se esperavam as que vêm, chuvas
        Na estação, deslocadas.
Meu vão conhecimento do que vejo
Com o que é falso se contenta, a noite,
Em pouco dando à conclusão factícia
        Do moribundo tudo.

When the lamp is broken and the shaking
        Light is for ever fled,
There is more memory of its breaking
        Than of the light it shed.
This may common be, but 'tis not glad;
It means many things and all are sad.

O teu lenço foi mal posto
Pela pressa que to pôs.
Mais mal posto é o meu desgosto
Do que não há entre nós.

I feel pale and I shiver.
        What power of the moonlight
Tremulous under the river
        Thus pains me with delight?

What spell told by the moon
        Unlooses all my soul?
O speak to me! I swoon!
        I fade from life's control!

I am a far spirit, e'en
        In the felt place of me.
O river too serene
        For my tranquillity!

O ache somehow of living!
        O sorrow for something!
O moon‑pain the sense‑giving
        That I am vainly king

In some spell‑bound realm mute,
        In a lunar land lone!
O ache as of a dying flute
        When we would have't play on!

Lavadeira a bater roupa
Na pedra que está na água,
Achas a minha mágoa pouca?
É muito tudo o que é mágoa.

I.
Once in a theatre comic
’Tween acts I pondered to see
On a column sculptured, wide and comic,
The grinning mask of Comedy;
And broad and wild in satyr-glee,
The grinning face of Comedy.

II.
«Ah,» said I, «face merry and comic,
There is happiness in thee,
Few faces like thine, wide-mouth'd and comic,
Oh, grinning face of Comedy;
Boisterously wrinkled, ugly and free,
The grinning mask of Comedy.»

III.
But as I gazed at the face that smiled,
With mine eyes half-dreamfully,
«Ah,» said I, «it is forced and wild,
Untrue smile of pitiless glee;
Forcedly wrinkled, unreal, unfree,
Hard-grinning mask of Comedy.»

IV.
And I trembled — now it no longer smiled,
It had forcedly smiled — now not even so.
Oh, fearful face, terribly wild,
Terribly silent face or woe;
Worn, hysterical, mad, unfree,
Woe-twisted face of Comedy.

Traze-me um copo com água
E a maneira de o trazer.
Quero ter a minha mágoa
Sem mostrar que a estou a ter.

O moinho que mói trigo
Mexe-o o vento ou a água,
Mas o que tenho comigo
Mexe-o apenas a mágoa.

O ribeiro bate, bate
Nas pedras que nele estão,
Mas nem há nada em que bata
O meu pobre coração.

Os ranchos das raparigas
Vão a cantar pela estrada...
Não oiço as suas cantigas
Só tenho pena de nada.

Set out from sight of shore!
                Grow tired of every sea!
        All things are ever more
                Than most they seem to be.
What steps are those that pass outside my door?

        Fail out from shape and thought!
                Let sense and feeling fade!
        O sadness overwrought
                With joy till bliss is strayed!
What birds are those that my swift window shade?

        But be those steps no steps,
                And be those birds dreamed wings,
        Still one ache oversteps
                The life to which it clings,
Though to know what ache no step in me helps
And what this pang is no bird in me sings.

The day is glad and golden.
Over the sunhit beach
The waves do gladly embolden
Their crisp and clinging reach.

Would I were one as they
With the natural hour,
With the wide sunlit day
And the ancient sea's power.

I would not be here weeping
That I am not aught else,
My waking would be a sleeping
Like this of the sea swells

Not like an outcast from
A home I never knew
Would I be pining for home,
……

Not like a tossed sea‑weed
Between the wave and the wave,
And restless with a mute greed
For something I cannot have.

Something I cannot een dream,
Some spent life I know not...
Oh how fair would nature seem
Were it not for thought!

Dark is the golden day
Unto mine eyes that stare
Brightness and joy away
From sky and shore and here.

Dead is the changing sea,
The wind a monotone,
Oh ever to be he
That never is but alone,

I cannot dream of heaven,
Nor create one in the hour...
Pass, day, and ask not even
For my grateful eyes' dower...

Quando passas pela rua
Sem reparar em quem passa,
A alegria é toda tua
E minha toda a desgraça.

Under a low and sullen sky,
Frowned on by lone winds that moan by
And palely sick for light from high
Till the landscape's soul doth sigh forever,
        Forever sigh,
A black and calmness‑haunted river,
That doth a town from itself sever,
Runs with an inner fear and shiver
Like a dim fate forever nigh,
        Nigher forever.

Ay, through that landscape lapsed from dream
Into a horrid truth doth gleam
That self‑absorbed, self‑empty stream
That bears a dream of dreams' emotion
        To emotion's dream!
Runs from a land whence is no motion
Towards a possible far ocean;
And they, whose eyes anguished sans motion
Bathe in it, take emotion's dream
        For dreams' emotion.

Entornaram-me o cabaz
Quando eu vinha pela estrada.
Como ele estava vazio,
Não houve loiça quebrada.

Nunca houve romaria
Que se lembrassem de mim...
Também quem se lembraria
De quem se lamenta assim?

Perdi a esperança como uma carteira vazia...
Troçou de mim o Destino; fiz figas para o outro lado,
E a revolta bem podia ser bordada a missanga por minha avó
E ser relíquia da sala da casa velha que não tenho.

(Jantávamos cedo, num outrora que já me parece de outra incarnação,
E depois tomava-se chá nas noites sossegadas que não voltam.
Minha infância, meu passado sem adolescência, passaram _,

Fiquei triste, como se a verdade me tivesse sido dita,
Mas nunca mais pude sentir verdade nenhuma excepto sentir o passado)

No ocaso, sobre Lisboa, no tédio dos dias que passam,
Fixo no tédio do dia que passa permanentemente
Moro na vigília involuntária como um fecho de porta
Que não fecha coisa nenhuma.
Meu coração involuntário, impulsivo,
Naufraga a esfinges indigentes
Nas consequências e fins, [acordando?] no [além?]...

O ar do campo vem brando,
Faz sono haver esse ar.
Já não sei se estou sonhando
Nem de que serve sonhar.