Emoções e Sentimentos

HORIZON

I

Unheard-of fathoms in the deep sea,
In cool caves deep
(The spoils of battle are not for thee)
For ever sleep.

No upward vision or shining mount
Rewards thy pain.
The secret angel keepeth no count
Of thy lost gain.

On the sphynx's mouth the tale is dead,
The path grass grown.
Our sorrow shall follow where thout hast led,
Through the Unknown.

Waitest thou hidden, or quiet rest
What silence forbids?
Give us at least thy unobtained quest
And the flowered meads.

Life goes on and a new Christmas comes
and we go under the sun, the earth turns
continually, ... praying for his holy birth
forget our own, mother, such rotten girth.
In the eyes of the noblest ones of them all
we wonder,...
will he die for my sins, or his own fall?

The life of a child, the son of holy union
( how about you )
the largest symbol, to many heathens, opinion
( surely you believe )
yet, as we remenber this day of his coming
( as you and I )
many more will surely be coming, atoning
( right )
many silly notions of our lowly, sad, life
when it matters not his real truth or spite
for your day for the deliverance of your heart
will stand one day, look around, also smart
( for real this time )
and wish for things already gone very far
hoping for a new start, everglowing star
of hopes, wishes, dreams, visions and faiths
that have never wanted you around
except when you can justify your being
through a gross process of your mind
where the cynic eyes choose your law
as simple, and above that of the flaw
which we have created for ourselves.

Awake!!! All you noble souls, realize, celebrate
the very birth of your own heart, you ingrate,
into my arms, the ones you have eer hoped
while you prayed, you cried, learnd, invoked
for a freedom on this earth
( your own )
with its carefully crafted dearth
( nature )
where so many can be created
devoid of heart and nurture
ready to fight another war
and die in splendour,
once again,
...
let them be born,
again,
those with the courage,
but never shall you try
to tell them why,
and how,
you just dont know,
you really dont know,
and why should you know...

ON AN ANKLE

A SONNET BEARING THE IMPRIMATUR
OF THE INQUISITOR-GENERAL
AND OTHER PEOPLE OF DISTINCTION AND DECENCY

I had a revelation not from high,
But from below, when thy skirt awhile lifted
Betrayed such promise that I am not gifted
With words that may that view well signify.

And even if my verse that thing would try,
Hard were it, if that work came to be sifted,
To find a word that rude would not have shifted
There from the cold hand of Morality.

To gaze is nought; mere sight no mind hath wrecked.
But oh! sweet lady, beyond what is seen
What things may guess or hint at Disrespect?!

Sacred is not the beauty of a queen...
I from thine ankle did as much suspect
As you from this may suspect what I mean.

EMPTINESS

The day sickens into the lake
The colour that its pallor wears.
A loss of outline overtakes
The landscape, and the horizon bears
Like a defeated flag the dim
Purposelessness of its dead rim.

Let my heart forsake everything.
I shall be richer by all I.
Every breath, each passing wing
Takes me from myself. The whole sky
Eats into my self-consciousness
And detracts from my true distress.

For my true sorrow is not that
The day is sad as I am sad,
But that no moment can abate
The pain that I but pain have had
To take with me and see and feel
While life goes by like a mere wheel.

No: vaguer things than skies and plains
Are dark and lowered o'er in me;
My sorrows are more empty pains
Than of which plains can symbols be;
And my void weight of life and self
Resembles nothing but itself.

EMPTINESS

The day sickens into the lake
The colour that its pallor wears.
A loss of outline overtakes
The landscape, and the horizon bears
Like a defeated flag the dim
Purposelessness of its dead rim.

Let my heart forsake everything.
I shall be richer by all I.
Every breath, each passing wing
Takes me from myself. The whole sky
Eats into my self-consciousness
And detracts from my true distress.

For my true sorrow is not that
The day is sad as I am sad,
But that no moment can abate
The pain that I but pain have had
To take with me and see and feel
While life goes by like a mere wheel.

No: vaguer things than skies and plains
Are dark and lowered o'er in me;
My sorrows are more empty pains
Than of which plains can symbols be;
And my void weight of life and self
Resembles nothing but itself.

When shall we rest?
The ceaseless waves
They have no quest.
The trees peace-ripe.
Their lifeless life
From sorrow saves.

When shall we go?
Wither? We care
Nothing to know.
Sorrow is here.
Aught may us cheer
Now of dim there.

What in us shall
Cease and leave peace?
Life holds in thrall
Our joy like pain,
Our loss-like gain,
Our stayed release.

Love cannot bless.
Bliss cannot live.
Joy's short caress
Passes like wind
Suddenly thinned
We dream and grieve.

Outward from us
There lies the land
Less luminous,
Where we may rest,
Leaving all quest,
Wishing no strand.

Ready the bark
For our repose.
Let us embark.
The sea is lone?
We are alone,
Pain but pain shows.

Remember nought.
Cease like a light
Suddenly not.
Merge like a dream
Into the stream
Of its own night.


25/04/1917

When shall we rest?
The ceaseless waves
They have no quest.
The trees peace-ripe.
Their lifeless life
From sorrow saves.

When shall we go?
Wither? We care
Nothing to know.
Sorrow is here.
Aught may us cheer
Now of dim there.

What in us shall
Cease and leave peace?
Life holds in thrall
Our joy like pain,
Our loss-like gain,
Our stayed release.

Love cannot bless.
Bliss cannot live.
Joy's short caress
Passes like wind
Suddenly thinned
We dream and grieve.

Outward from us
There lies the land
Less luminous,
Where we may rest,
Leaving all quest,
Wishing no strand.

Ready the bark
For our repose.
Let us embark.
The sea is lone?
We are alone,
Pain but pain shows.

Remember nought.
Cease like a light
Suddenly not.
Merge like a dream
Into the stream
Of its own night.


25/04/1917

When shall we rest?
The ceaseless waves
They have no quest.
The trees peace-ripe.
Their lifeless life
From sorrow saves.

When shall we go?
Wither? We care
Nothing to know.
Sorrow is here.
Aught may us cheer
Now of dim there.

What in us shall
Cease and leave peace?
Life holds in thrall
Our joy like pain,
Our loss-like gain,
Our stayed release.

Love cannot bless.
Bliss cannot live.
Joy's short caress
Passes like wind
Suddenly thinned
We dream and grieve.

Outward from us
There lies the land
Less luminous,
Where we may rest,
Leaving all quest,
Wishing no strand.

Ready the bark
For our repose.
Let us embark.
The sea is lone?
We are alone,
Pain but pain shows.

Remember nought.
Cease like a light
Suddenly not.
Merge like a dream
Into the stream
Of its own night.


25/04/1917

THE LIP

One day in half-slumbrous raving
Where I saw strange fancies skip,
I saw in a dream, by no light's gleam,
A man with only one lip –
Absolutely, absolutely, absolutely,
Absolutely with only one lip.

I remember well that he had no face
Nor a nose with a usual tip;
He had nor eyes, nor cheks, nor hair
But only, only one lip –
Only one, only one, only one,
Only one, one, one lip.

Can ye think of it without terror?
No other lip did slip
Into the vision, nor was it a lack:
There was only, only one lip.
Could you see him as I you would grow mad.
That man with only one lip.


Alexander Search

January, 2nd 1908

THE LIP

One day in half-slumbrous raving
Where I saw strange fancies skip,
I saw in a dream, by no light's gleam,
A man with only one lip –
Absolutely, absolutely, absolutely,
Absolutely with only one lip.

I remember well that he had no face
Nor a nose with a usual tip;
He had nor eyes, nor cheks, nor hair
But only, only one lip –
Only one, only one, only one,
Only one, one, one lip.

Can ye think of it without terror?
No other lip did slip
Into the vision, nor was it a lack:
There was only, only one lip.
Could you see him as I you would grow mad.
That man with only one lip.


Alexander Search

January, 2nd 1908

Chorosos versos meus desentoados,
Sem arte, sem beleza e sem brandura,
Urdidos pela mão da Desventura,
Pela baça Tristeza envenenados:

Vede a luz, não busqueis, desesperados,
No mudo esquecimento a sepultura;
Se os ditosos vos lerem sem ternura,
Ler-vos-ão com ternura os desgraçados:

Não vos inspire, ó versos, cobardia
Da sátira mordaz o furor louco,
Da maldizente voz e tirania:

Desculpa tendes, se valeis tão pouco,
Que não pode cantar com melodia
Um peito de gemer cansado e rouco.

Chorosos versos meus desentoados,
Sem arte, sem beleza e sem brandura,
Urdidos pela mão da Desventura,
Pela baça Tristeza envenenados:

Vede a luz, não busqueis, desesperados,
No mudo esquecimento a sepultura;
Se os ditosos vos lerem sem ternura,
Ler-vos-ão com ternura os desgraçados:

Não vos inspire, ó versos, cobardia
Da sátira mordaz o furor louco,
Da maldizente voz e tirania:

Desculpa tendes, se valeis tão pouco,
Que não pode cantar com melodia
Um peito de gemer cansado e rouco.

Camões, grande Camões, quão semelhante
Acho teu fado ao meu quando os cotejo!
Igual causa nos fez perdendo o Tejo
Arrostar co sacrílego gigante:

Como tu, junto ao Ganges sussurrante
Da penúria cruel no horror me vejo;
Como tu, gostos vãos, que em vão desejo,
Também carpindo estou, saudoso amante:

Lubíbrio, como tu, da sorte dura,
Meu fim demando ao Céu, pela certeza
De que só terei paz na sepultura:

Modelo meu tu és... Mas, ó tristeza!...
Se te imito nos transes da ventura,
Não te imito nos dons da natureza.

Camões, grande Camões, quão semelhante
Acho teu fado ao meu quando os cotejo!
Igual causa nos fez perdendo o Tejo
Arrostar co sacrílego gigante:

Como tu, junto ao Ganges sussurrante
Da penúria cruel no horror me vejo;
Como tu, gostos vãos, que em vão desejo,
Também carpindo estou, saudoso amante:

Lubíbrio, como tu, da sorte dura,
Meu fim demando ao Céu, pela certeza
De que só terei paz na sepultura:

Modelo meu tu és... Mas, ó tristeza!...
Se te imito nos transes da ventura,
Não te imito nos dons da natureza.

A SENSATIONIST POEM

Her fingers toyed absently with her rings

There are fallen angels in the way you look
And great bridges over silent streams in your smile.
Your gestures are a lonely princess dreaming over a book
At a windows over a lake, on some distant isle.

If I were to stretch my hand and touch your that would be
Dawn behind the turrets of a city in some East.
The words hidden in my gesture would be moon light on the sea
Of your being something in my soul like gaiety in a feast

Let your silence tell me of the numberless dreams that are you,
Let the drooping of your eyelids veil landscapes that are you,
I ask no more than that you should come into my dreams and be true
To the wider seas within me and my inner eternal day.

Blossoms, blossoms, blossoms along the road of your going to speak.
Eighteenth century gardens, so sad in the middle of our dreaming them now,
Are the way you are conscious of yourself on your eyelids, by your lips, through your cheek.
O the road to Nowhere all for us and we there and a new God this to allow!

Do not scatter the silence that is the palace where our consciousness
Is now living at unity our duplicate lives of one soul.
What are we, in our dream of each other, but a picture which is
The masterpiece of a painter that never painted at all?


1916

MANIA OF DOUBT

All things unto me are queries
That from normalness depart,
And their ceaseless asking wearies
My heart.
Things are and seem, and nothing bears
The secret of the life it wears.
All thing’s presence e’er is asking
Questions of disturbing pain
With dreadful hesitation tasking
My brain
How false is truth? How much doth seem
Since dreams are all and all’s a dream.
Before mystery my will faileth
Torn with war within the mind,
.............

Alexander Search

Praia presa, adiantada
no mar, no longe, no círculo
de coral que o mar represa.
Praia futura invocada.
Timor ressurge das águas,
praia futura invocada.

MEANTIME

Far away, far away,
Far away from here...
There is no worry after joy
Or away from fear
Far away from here.

Her lips were not very red,
Nor her hair quite gold.
Her hands played with rings.
She did not let me hold
Her hands playing with gold.

She is something past,
Far away from pain.
Joy can touch her not, nor hope
Enter her domain,
Neither love in vain.

Perhaps at some day beyond
Shadows and light
She will think of me and make
All me a delight
All away from sight.

MEANTIME

Far away, far away,
Far away from here...
There is no worry after joy
Or away from fear
Far away from here.

Her lips were not very red,
Nor her hair quite gold.
Her hands played with rings.
She did not let me hold
Her hands playing with gold.

She is something past,
Far away from pain.
Joy can touch her not, nor hope
Enter her domain,
Neither love in vain.

Perhaps at some day beyond
Shadows and light
She will think of me and make
All me a delight
All away from sight.

FAR AWAY

Far away far away
Far away from here...
There's no running after joy
Or away from fear,
Far away from here.

Her lips were not very red
Nor her hair quite gold.
Her hands played with rings.
She did not let me hold
Her hands playing with gold.

She is somewhere past,
Far away from pain.
Joy can touch her not, nor hope
Enter her domain,
Neither love in vain.

Perhaps at some day beyond
Shadows and light,
She will think of me and make
All me a delight,
Far away from sight.

Este foi o mês em que cantei
dentro de minha casa
debaixo
das oliveiras.

O mês em que a brisa me pôs nas mãos
uma harpa de folhas
e a terra me emprestou
sua flauta e sua lua.
Maré viva. Meu sangue atravessado
por um cometa visível a olho nu
tangido por satélites e aves de arribação
navegado por peixes desconhecidos.

Este foi o mês em que cantei
como quem morre e ressuscita
no terceiro dia
de cada sílaba.

O mês em que subi a uma colina
dentro de minha casa
olhei a terra e o mar
depois cantei
como quem faz com duas pedras
o primeiro lume. Palavras
e pedras. Palavras e lume
de uma vida.

Este foi o mês em que fui a um lugar santo
dentro de minha casa.
O mês em que saí dos campos
e me banhei no rio como quem se baptiza
e cantei debaixo das oliveiras
as mãos cheias de terra. Palavras
e terra
de uma vida.

Este foi o mês em que cantei
como quem espelha ao vento suas cinzas
e cresce de seu próprio adubo
carregado de folhas. Palavras
e folhas
de uma vida.

O mês em que a mulher
tocou meus ombros com sua graça
e me deu a beber
a água pura do seu poço.
Este foi o mês em que o filho
derramou dentro de mim
o orvalho e o sol
de sua manhã.

O mês em que cantei
como quem de si se perde e reencontra
nas coisas novamente nomeadas.

Este foi o mês em que atravessei montanhas
e cheguei a um lugar onde as palavras
escorriam leite e mel.
MILAGRE MILAGRE gritaram dentro de mim
as aves todas da floresta.

Então reparei que era o lugar do poema
o lugar santo onde cantei
entre mulher e o filho
como quem dá graças.

Este foi o mês em que cantei
dentro de minha casa
debaixo
das oliveiras.

THE BROKEN WINDOW

My heart is silent as a look.
There is a home beyond the hills.
My heart is silent as a look.
My home is there, beyond the hills.

I bear my heart like an old curse.
There is no reason for regret.
I bear my heart like an old curse.
Why should we reason or regret?

My heart dwells in me like a ghost.
Beyond the hills my hope lies dead.
My heart dwells with me like a ghost.
Beyond my hope the hills lie dead.

They took away my heart like weeds.
It was not true that I should live.
They took away my heart like weeds.
I could not think it true to live.

Now there are great stains in my heart.
They are like blood-stains on a floor.
Now there are great stains in my heart.
And my heart lies upon the floor.

The room is closed for ever now.
My heart is now buried alive.
My heart is closed for ever now.
The whole room is buried alive.

THE BROKEN WINDOW

My heart is silent as a look.
There is a home beyond the hills.
My heart is silent as a look.
My home is there, beyond the hills.

I bear my heart like an old curse.
There is no reason for regret.
I bear my heart like an old curse.
Why should we reason or regret?

My heart dwells in me like a ghost.
Beyond the hills my hope lies dead.
My heart dwells with me like a ghost.
Beyond my hope the hills lie dead.

They took away my heart like weeds.
It was not true that I should live.
They took away my heart like weeds.
I could not think it true to live.

Now there are great stains in my heart.
They are like blood-stains on a floor.
Now there are great stains in my heart.
And my heart lies upon the floor.

The room is closed for ever now.
My heart is now buried alive.
My heart is closed for ever now.
The whole room is buried alive.

THE BROKEN WINDOW

My heart is silent as a look.
There is a home beyond the hills.
My heart is silent as a look.
My home is there, beyond the hills.

I bear my heart like an old curse.
There is no reason for regret.
I bear my heart like an old curse.
Why should we reason or regret?

My heart dwells in me like a ghost.
Beyond the hills my hope lies dead.
My heart dwells with me like a ghost.
Beyond my hope the hills lie dead.

They took away my heart like weeds.
It was not true that I should live.
They took away my heart like weeds.
I could not think it true to live.

Now there are great stains in my heart.
They are like blood-stains on a floor.
Now there are great stains in my heart.
And my heart lies upon the floor.

The room is closed for ever now.
My heart is now buried alive.
My heart is closed for ever now.
The whole room is buried alive.