Desejo

I loved a woman; there was the story of sex relations, an emotional novelty. They were sex relations and no more. It was pleasure and no more.

O manjerico comprado
Não é melhor que o que dão.
Põe o manjerico ao lado
E dá-me o teu coração.

Nuvem do céu, que pareces
Tudo quanto a gente quer,
Se tu, ao menos, me desses
O que se não pode ter!

A rosa que se não colhe
Nem por isso tem mais vida.
Ninguém há que te não olhe
Que te não queira colhida.

Cedo de mais vem sempre, Cloé, o inverno.
É sempre prematuro, inda que o espere
        Nosso hábito, o esfriar
        Do desejo que houve.

Não entardece que não morra o dia.
Não nasce amor ou fé em nós que não
        Morra com isso ao menos
        O não amar ou crer.

Todo o gesto que o nosso corpo faz
Com o repouso anterior contrasta.
        Nesta má circunstância
        Do tempo eternos somos.

Só sabe da arte com que viva a vida
Aquele que, de tão contínua usá-la,
        Furte ao tempo a vitória
        Das mudanças depressa,

E entardecendo como um dia trópico,
Até ao fim inevitável guie
        Uma igual vida, súbito
        Precipite no abismo.

Trazes um lenço novinho
Na cabeça e a descair,
Se eu te beijar no cantinho
Só saberá quem nos vir.

Apollo unto Neptune said:
        «Come, I shall drink the sea!»
But Neptune laughed out like a lad
        In his boyish jollity,
And cried: «You would drink the earth, if you could,
        And infinity.»
And the poet the symbol who understood
        Felt his misery.

Cada momento que a um prazer não voto
Perco, nem curo se o prazer me é dado;
        Porque o sonho de um gozo
        No gozo não é sonho.

IV.

1.
When thou didst speak but now I felt
        A terror mad and strange.
Conceive it thou. I could have knelt
To thy lips, to their curve, to its change.
        The talking curve of thy lips
        And thy teeth but slightly shown
Were my delirium's waking whips.
        I felt my reason overthrown.

A super-sensual fetichism
        Haunts my deep-raving brain.
Greater than ever grows the abysm
Of my reason's and feeling's schism,
        Cut with the pickaxe of pain.

More than they show all things contain.

2.
Something not of this world doth lie
        In thy smile, in thy lips live turn;
A figure, a form I know not why
That wakes in me — without a sigh
        But with terror I cannot spurn
        With terror wild and mute —
Is it remembrances, is it
        Desires so vague half-known they flit
And not in thought nor sentiment take root?

        My mind grows madder and more fit
        In everything to catch and find
        Meanings, resemblances defined
        By not a form that thought can hit.

Smile not. Thou canst not comprehend!
        What is this? What truth doth sleep
        In these ravings without end
                And beyond notion deep?
Laugh not. Know'st thou what madness is?
Wonder not. All is mysteries.
        Ask not. For who can reply?
Weep for me, child, but do not love me
Who have in me too much that is above me,
        Too much I cannot call «I».
        Weep for the ruin of my mind
Weep rather, child, that things so deep should move me
        To lose the clear thoughts that could prove me
                One worthy of mankind.

Só com um jeito do corpo
Feito sem dares por isso
Fazes mais mal que o demónio
Em dias de grande enguiço.

I.

Thy hand with its lovely fingers
        And the heavy rings on them!
How my soul over them lingers
Each finger with a heavy gem,
Each ring like a small diadem!

When thou and I are alone,
One only wish my soul stings —
Holding thy hand in my own,
All night, while the night-bird sings,
To take off and replace thy rings.

«Vou trabalhando a peneira
E pensando assim assim.
Eu não nasci para freira.
Gosto que gostem de mim.»

A tua saia, que é curta,
Deixa-te a perna a mostrar:
Meu coração já se furta
A sentir sem eu pensar.

Vai longe, na serra alta,
A nuvem que nela toca...
Dá-me aquilo que me falta —
Os beijos da tua boca.

II.

When thou seeëst me spend hours
Holding in a feverish glance
Thy mouth or teeth, or thy hand,
And notest how my soul devours
With a sleepness like to trance
The commonest things that stand

And askest what in them I see
That into each my spirit delves
As if each had a mystery,
Thou err'st in thy conjecturings,
For what ever obsesses me
Is not things in their weary selves
But the being there of things.

Vem cá dizer-me que sim.
Ou vem dizer-me que não.
Porque sempre vens assim
P’ra ao pé do meu coração.

Frescura do que é regado,
Por onde a água inda verte...
Quero dizer-te um bocado
Do que não ouso dizer-te.

Ai, os pratos de arroz-doce
Com as linhas de canela!
Ai a mão branca que os trouxe!
Ai essa mão ser a dela!

Me concedam os deuses lá do alto
Da sua calma que não custa ou serve
        Ter uma vida tal qual eles
        Se fossem homens a teriam...
Dominando desejos e esperanças
Não para ser comprado pelas ínguas
        A maldizer da (...)…

O voice the angels kissed when unbreathed yet!
O lips made spiritual with uttering it!
O eyes wild with the lust of the divine
In thy felt presence, making thee its shrine!
O that this moment of thee were Thyself!
That thou ne’er fell'st from this Thou, and the pelf
Of gathered days with avarice of living,
Touched thee not from this moment of God's giving!
O eternal actuality of thee!
O by thy voice sculptured immutably
In some stone‑flesh of spirit! O set free
From being all contained in being seen!
O firmament of joy purely serene
With spaciousness of soul and stars of song
Above thyself, God's human heights among!

Sing on, and let thy singing be a couch
To that of me which to my soul doth vouch
Of God as of a self and of a home!
Dissolve me to thy notes! Make me become
An outside of myself, and have in me
Nought but a selfless sense of hearing thee!
Let me pertain to the sounds thou dost voice!
Let me be other than I and rejoice
Hearing time like a breeze pass by the place
Thy song imprisons in its halcyon grace!

Thy voice compels to parapets from heaven
Dim winged happinesses whence is woven
To our souls such a glamour, spirit‑fair,
That, feeling it, all life becomes despair
And all the sense of life to wish to die.
Sing on! Between the music's human cry
And thy song's meaning there is interposed
Some third reality, less life‑enclosed,
Some subtler tenderness than music makes
Or words sung, and its moonless moonlight takes
Our visionary moods by their child‑hand
And our tired steps begin to understand.

Sing, nor stop singing till bliss ache too much!
O that I could, without moving my hand,
Stretch forth some hand imaginary and touch
That body of thine thy singing giveth thee!
That kiss‑like touch would wake eternity
In me again, and, as by a great morn,
The night my body makes of me were torn
Away from being, and my unbodied shape
Would, like a ship doubling the final cape,
Come to that sight of port and shiver of coming
That God allows to those whose bliss of roaming
Is no more than the wish to find His peace
And mingle with it as a scent with the breeze.

A tua irmã é pequena,
Quando tiver tua idade,
Transferirei minha pena
Ou fico só com metade?

Why do I desire
What I do not need?
Why does my soul, like fire,
Or a hot abstract greed,
Seek all that is higher?

Why, if not because
It is a soul? (...)
Who can know the cause
When it lies in its whole
Hidden in (...) laws?

Yet this matters not.
What matters is pining
And that stress of thought
That comes of divining
What to wish that may not be got.

Quando apertaste o teu cinto
Puseste o cravo na boca.
Não sei dizer o que sinto
Quando o que sinto me toca.

Let them speak ill of me. I do not care
Why shouldst thou care that fairer art than I?
My lips so oft have rested on thy hair,
So oft on thy lips, and so oft
On thy white arms that yet pretend to lie
On my dreams cushions like a vague thing soft...

Let them speak. Life is sweet if thy lips mean
Life. Love is sweet if thou art love.
The scorners cannot know what kisses screen
Our throbbing heart from heart nor prove
That full possession our mad love can scene
With perverse actions like an empire's end
That sinks among the galleys and doth blend
Its sunset with the landscape's emerald green.

Let them speak. Put thy hand within my hand
And let us love as maid and boy are said
To love. But we are none and love is red
On our hot souls thrill and understand.
Oh, to thy bed!

Oh to thy bed, fairer than maidens' couches
And curtained over with strange care for strangeness,
Let's to thy bed and kiss naked while touches
Selected from our hotter dreams transcend
Lust with thought lust acted upon our frames.
The magic misery of our wedded names
Shall light the future with impassioned strangeness.

Antinous!