Emoções e Sentimentos

Fremosas, a Deus grado,
tan bon dia comigo!
Ca novas mi disseron,
ca ven o meu amigo,
ca ven o meu amigo.
Tan bon dia [co]migo!

Tan bon dia comigo!
Fremosas, a Deus grado,
ca novas mi disseron,
ca ven o meu amado,
ca ven o meu amado.
Fremosas, a Deus grado!

Ca novas mi disseron,
ca ven o meu amigo,
e ando ende eu mui leda,
pois tal mandado ei migo,
pois tal mandado ei migo,
ca ven o meu amigo!

Ca novas me disseron
ca ven o meu amado
e ando [ende] eu mui leda,
pois migo ei tal mandado,
pois migo ei tal mandado,
ca ven o meu amado!

DOUBT

Tell me, tell me who dreams most –
He who sees the world aright
Or the man in dreaming lost?
What is true? What is’t that seems –
The lie that’s lie that is in dreams?

Who is unto truth less near –
He who sees all truth a shadow
Or he who sees dreams all clear?
He who is a good guest, or he?
Who feels alien at the feast?


Alexander Search, 19/06/1907

Amigo, entendo que non ouvestes
poder dalhur viver e veestes
a mia mesura, e non vos val ren,
ca tamanho pesar me fezestes,
que jurei de vos nunca fazer ben.

Quisera-me eu non aver jurado,
tanto vos vejo viir coitado
a mia mesura. Mais que prol vos ten?
Ca, u vos fostes sen meu mandado,
jurei que nunca vos fezesse ben.

Por sempre sodes de mi partido
e non vos á prol de seer viido
a mia mesura, e gran mal mé en,
ca jurei, tanto que fostes ido,
que nunca jamais vos fezesse ben.

Ai se eu disser que as tremuras
Me dão nas pernas, e as loucuras
Fazem esquecer-me dos prantos
Pensar em juras

Ai se eu disser que foi feitiço
Que fez na saia dar ventania
Mostrar-me coisas tão belas
Ter fantasia
E sonhar com aquele encontro
Sonhar que não diz que não

Tem um jeito de senhora
E um olhar desmascarado
De céu negro ou céu estrelado, ou Sol
Daquele que a gente sabe.
O seu balanço gingado
Tem os mistérios do mar
E a certeza do caminho certo
que tem a estrela polar.

Não sei se faça convite
E se quebre a tradição
Ou se lhe mande uma carta
Como ouvi numa canção
Só sei que o calor aperta
E ainda não estamos no verão.

Quanto mais o tempo passa
Mais me afasto da razão
E ela insiste no passeio à tarde
Em tom de provocação
Até que num dia feriado
Pra curtir a solidão
Fui consumir as tristezas
Pró baile do Sr. João

Não sei se foi por magia
Ou seria maldição
Dei por mim rodopiando
Bem no meio do salão
Acabei no tal convite
Em jeito de confissão
E a resposta foi tão doce
Que a beijei com emoção
Só que a malta não gritou
Como ouvi numa canção

Ai se eu disser que as tremuras
Me dão nas pernas, e as loucuras
Fazem esquecer-me dos prantos
Pensar em juras

Ai se eu disser que foi feitiço
Que fez na saia dar ventania
Mostrar-me coisas tão belas
Ter fantasia
E sonhar com aquele encontro
Sonhar que não diz que não

Tem um jeito de senhora
E um olhar desmascarado
De céu negro ou céu estrelado, ou Sol
Daquele que a gente sabe.
O seu balanço gingado
Tem os mistérios do mar
E a certeza do caminho certo
que tem a estrela polar.

Não sei se faça convite
E se quebre a tradição
Ou se lhe mande uma carta
Como ouvi numa canção
Só sei que o calor aperta
E ainda não estamos no verão.

Quanto mais o tempo passa
Mais me afasto da razão
E ela insiste no passeio à tarde
Em tom de provocação
Até que num dia feriado
Pra curtir a solidão
Fui consumir as tristezas
Pró baile do Sr. João

Não sei se foi por magia
Ou seria maldição
Dei por mim rodopiando
Bem no meio do salão
Acabei no tal convite
Em jeito de confissão
E a resposta foi tão doce
Que a beijei com emoção
Só que a malta não gritou
Como ouvi numa canção

EPISODE

No matter what we dream,
What we dream is true.
No matter what doth seem,
God doth it view
And therefore it is
Real as all this.

No matter what we wish,
We have it elsewhere,
Now, e'er now and rich
Are we here of there.
Inside our felt I
God we self-descry.

Sometimes I think hope
May make this come true,
But I stop, I grope,
And life, fear and woe
Is all that remains.
Wherefore then these pains,

This unrest that thrills
With a possible joy,
All the pain that fills
Our hope till it cloy?
Wherefore this, wherefore
If all is unsure?

O give me a breeze
On a meadow land,
And let that breeze please
Nor I understand.
For all anguish is
A vague wish for bliss.

EPISODE

No matter what we dream,
What we dream is true.
No matter what doth seem,
God doth it view
And therefore it is
Real as all this.

No matter what we wish,
We have it elsewhere,
Now, e'er now and rich
Are we here of there.
Inside our felt I
God we self-descry.

Sometimes I think hope
May make this come true,
But I stop, I grope,
And life, fear and woe
Is all that remains.
Wherefore then these pains,

This unrest that thrills
With a possible joy,
All the pain that fills
Our hope till it cloy?
Wherefore this, wherefore
If all is unsure?

O give me a breeze
On a meadow land,
And let that breeze please
Nor I understand.
For all anguish is
A vague wish for bliss.

O teito é de pedra.
De pedra son os muros
i as tebras.
De pedra o chan
i as reixas.
As portas,
as cadeas,
o aire,
as fenestras,
as olladas,
son de pedra.
Os corazós dos homes
que ao lonxe espreitan
feitos están
tamén
de pedra.
I eu, morrendo
nesta longa noite
de pedra.

O teito é de pedra.
De pedra son os muros
i as tebras.
De pedra o chan
i as reixas.
As portas,
as cadeas,
o aire,
as fenestras,
as olladas,
son de pedra.
Os corazós dos homes
que ao lonxe espreitan
feitos están
tamén
de pedra.
I eu, morrendo
nesta longa noite
de pedra.

O teito é de pedra.
De pedra son os muros
i as tebras.
De pedra o chan
i as reixas.
As portas,
as cadeas,
o aire,
as fenestras,
as olladas,
son de pedra.
Os corazós dos homes
que ao lonxe espreitan
feitos están
tamén
de pedra.
I eu, morrendo
nesta longa noite
de pedra.

EPITAPH

Here lies who thought himself the best
Of poet’s in the world’s extend;
In life he had not joy nor rest.

He filled with madness many a song,
And at whatever age he died
Thus many days he lived too long.

He lived im powerless egotism,
His soul tumultuous and disordered
By thought and feeling’s endless schism.

In everything he had a foe
And without courage bore his part
In life’s interminable woe.

He was a slave to grief and fear
And incoherent thoughts he had
And wishes unto madness near.

Those whom he loved, by arts of ill
He treated worse than foes; but he
His own worst enemy was still.

He of himself did ever sing,
Incapable of modesty,
Lock’d in his wild imagining.

Useless was all his toiless trouble
Empty of sense his fears and pains
And many of them were ignoble.

Vile thus and worthless his distress;
His words, though bitterer far than hate,
His bitter soul could not express.
.........

Let not a healthy mind pollute
His grave, but fitly there will pass
The traitor and the prostitute;

The drunkard and the wencher there
May pass, but quick, lest they should ponder,
Perchance, that pleasure is but air.

Each weak and execrable mind
Which plagued man with its rotteness
Its conscious master here will find.

Conscious, for in him he could tell
Madness and ill were what they were,
But neither did he will to quell.

Pass by therefore ye who can weep,
Let rotteness work in neglect,
While the rough winds the dead leaves sweep.

His slumbering brother to the sod
Not even in imagining
Disturb not with the name of God.

But let him lie and peace for ever
Far from the eyes and mouth of men
And from what him from them did sever.

He was a thing that God had wrought
And to the sin of having lived
He joined the crime of having thought.

Alexander Search, Julho de 1907

ALENTEJO SEEN FROM THE TRAIN

Nothing with nothing around it
And a few trees in between
None of which very clearly green,
Where no river or flower pays a visit.
If there be a hell, I've found it,
For if ain't here, where the Devil is it?

1907

THE POEM

There sleeps a poem in my mind
That shall my entire soul express.
I feel it vague as sound and wind
Yet sculptured in full definiteness.

It has no stanza, verse or word.
Ev'n as I dream it, it is not.
'Tis a mere feeling of it, blurred,
And but a happy mist round thought.

Day and night in my mystery
I dream and read and spell it over,
And ever round words' brink in me
Its vague completeness seems to hover.

I know it never shall be writ.
I know I know not what it is.
But I am happy dreaming it,
And false bliss, although false, is bliss.

THE SHINNING POOL


Go: thou hast nothing to forgive.
To dream is better than to live.

But he shall see the rising sun
Who leaveth everything undone;
Whose mind from his attention's task
Strays like the shifting of a mask.

He only shall through greener vales
Than even those that shine right through
The window-panes of children's tales
Wander, who thinks the world anew.

Only for him who sits and sings
On the stiles and forgets his road
Does the fairies' bird spread her wings
And the fairies' flowers grow more broad.

He shall not find a hand to feed
The silent sources of his need.
No one shall point the rill where he
May slake the thirst of infancy.

But greener valleys than To-Day
And dearer thoughts than Far Away
Shall tap at his window and wake
His freshness other thirsts to slake.

So, like a seamstress sitting still
At a window in the sunset
Of a village no steps have met,
He shall belong to nothing ill,

But incorporeal, like a wish,
His soul shall like a rainbow cross
The rain-green pastures of his loss
And earth shall blossom into speech.

THE MAD FIDDLER

I

THE MAD FIDDLER


THE MAD FIDDLER

Not from the northern road,
Not from the southern way
First his wild music flowed
Into the village that day.

He suddenly was in the lane,
The people came out to hear
He suddenly went, and in vain
Their hopes wished him to appear.

His music strange did fret
Each heart to wish 'twas free.
If was not a melody yet
It was not no melody.

Somewhere far away
Somewhere far outside
Being forced to live, they
Felt this tune replied.

Replied to that longing
All have in their breasts,
To lost sense belonging
To forgotten quests.

The happy wife now knew
That she had married ill,
The glad fond lover grew
Weary of loving still,

The maid and the boy felt glad
That they had dreaming only
The lone hearts that were sad
Felt somewhere less lonely.

In each soul woke the flower
Whose touch leaves earthless dust,
The soul's husband's first hour,
The thing completing us,

The shadow that comes to bless
From kissed depths unexpressed,
The luminous restlessness
That is better than rest.

As he came, he went.
They felt him but half-be.
Then he was quietly blent
With silence and memory.

Sleep left again their laughter,
Their tranced hope ceased to last,
And but a small time after
They knew not he had passed.

Yet when the sorrow of living,
Because life is not willed,
Comes back in dreams' hours, giving
A sense of life being chilled,

Suddenly each remembers –
It glows like a coming moon
On where their dream-life embers –
The mad fiddlers tune.

THE MAD FIDDLER

I

THE MAD FIDDLER


THE MAD FIDDLER

Not from the northern road,
Not from the southern way
First his wild music flowed
Into the village that day.

He suddenly was in the lane,
The people came out to hear
He suddenly went, and in vain
Their hopes wished him to appear.

His music strange did fret
Each heart to wish 'twas free.
If was not a melody yet
It was not no melody.

Somewhere far away
Somewhere far outside
Being forced to live, they
Felt this tune replied.

Replied to that longing
All have in their breasts,
To lost sense belonging
To forgotten quests.

The happy wife now knew
That she had married ill,
The glad fond lover grew
Weary of loving still,

The maid and the boy felt glad
That they had dreaming only
The lone hearts that were sad
Felt somewhere less lonely.

In each soul woke the flower
Whose touch leaves earthless dust,
The soul's husband's first hour,
The thing completing us,

The shadow that comes to bless
From kissed depths unexpressed,
The luminous restlessness
That is better than rest.

As he came, he went.
They felt him but half-be.
Then he was quietly blent
With silence and memory.

Sleep left again their laughter,
Their tranced hope ceased to last,
And but a small time after
They knew not he had passed.

Yet when the sorrow of living,
Because life is not willed,
Comes back in dreams' hours, giving
A sense of life being chilled,

Suddenly each remembers –
It glows like a coming moon
On where their dream-life embers –
The mad fiddlers tune.

THE MAD FIDDLER

I

THE MAD FIDDLER


THE MAD FIDDLER

Not from the northern road,
Not from the southern way
First his wild music flowed
Into the village that day.

He suddenly was in the lane,
The people came out to hear
He suddenly went, and in vain
Their hopes wished him to appear.

His music strange did fret
Each heart to wish 'twas free.
If was not a melody yet
It was not no melody.

Somewhere far away
Somewhere far outside
Being forced to live, they
Felt this tune replied.

Replied to that longing
All have in their breasts,
To lost sense belonging
To forgotten quests.

The happy wife now knew
That she had married ill,
The glad fond lover grew
Weary of loving still,

The maid and the boy felt glad
That they had dreaming only
The lone hearts that were sad
Felt somewhere less lonely.

In each soul woke the flower
Whose touch leaves earthless dust,
The soul's husband's first hour,
The thing completing us,

The shadow that comes to bless
From kissed depths unexpressed,
The luminous restlessness
That is better than rest.

As he came, he went.
They felt him but half-be.
Then he was quietly blent
With silence and memory.

Sleep left again their laughter,
Their tranced hope ceased to last,
And but a small time after
They knew not he had passed.

Yet when the sorrow of living,
Because life is not willed,
Comes back in dreams' hours, giving
A sense of life being chilled,

Suddenly each remembers –
It glows like a coming moon
On where their dream-life embers –
The mad fiddlers tune.

SUSPENSE

I dream, and strange dim powers
My shining sleep assist;
A sound as of coming showers
Creeps towards me, loudly hist;
And lo! all my forgotten hours
Lie round me like a mist.

The ghosts of my dead selves
Weave round me a false mesh;
My undreamed dreams, pale elves,
Are now part of my flesh;
And all I am my unselfing shelves
On dreams, out of my reach.

I touch impalpable things;
I am sunny with past days;
Remote sounds, like near wings,
Flank my blind spirit's ways;
And from the other side of the big hill rings
A bell that summons to praise.

But I am sick of dreaming,
Weary of being the same
Over desert spaces of seeming,
Unwilling player of a game
With life, far star but gleaming
On dead earths without name.

Fierce dreams of something else!
Frenzy to go away
(O wave in me that swells!)
From life where life must stay –
Life ever at today!

Some other place and thing!
Not a life! not mine so!
O to be a wind, a wing,
A bark me there to bring!

Whither? If I could know,
I would not wish to go.

SUSPENSE

I dream, and strange dim powers
My shining sleep assist;
A sound as of coming showers
Creeps towards me, loudly hist;
And lo! all my forgotten hours
Lie round me like a mist.

The ghosts of my dead selves
Weave round me a false mesh;
My undreamed dreams, pale elves,
Are now part of my flesh;
And all I am my unselfing shelves
On dreams, out of my reach.

I touch impalpable things;
I am sunny with past days;
Remote sounds, like near wings,
Flank my blind spirit's ways;
And from the other side of the big hill rings
A bell that summons to praise.

But I am sick of dreaming,
Weary of being the same
Over desert spaces of seeming,
Unwilling player of a game
With life, far star but gleaming
On dead earths without name.

Fierce dreams of something else!
Frenzy to go away
(O wave in me that swells!)
From life where life must stay –
Life ever at today!

Some other place and thing!
Not a life! not mine so!
O to be a wind, a wing,
A bark me there to bring!

Whither? If I could know,
I would not wish to go.

This is the month and this the day.
Ye must not stay.
Sally ye out and in warm clusters move
To where beyond the trees the belfry's height
Does in the blue wide heaven a message prove,
Somewhat calm, of delight.
Now flushed and whispering loud sally ye out
To church! The sun pours on the ordered rout,
And all their following eyes clasp round the bride:
They feel like hands her bosom and her side;
Like the inside of the vestment next her skin,
They round her round and fold each crevice in;
They lift her skirts up, as to tease or woo
The cleft hid thing below;
And this they think at her peeps in their ways
And in their glances plays.

35 SONETS

I

Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.

Like a bad suitor desperate and trembling
From the mixed sense of being not loved and loving,
Who with feared longing half would know, dissembling
With what he'd wish proved what he fears soon proving,
I look with inner eyes afraid to look,
Yet perplexed into looking, at the worth
This verse may have and wonder, of my book,
To what thoughts shall't in alien hearts give birth.
But, as he who doth love, and, loving, hopes,
Yet, hoping, fears, fears to put proof to proof,
And in his mind for possible proofs gropes,
Delaying the true proof, lest the real thing scoff,
I daily live, i'th' fame I dream to see,
But by my thought of others' thought of me.

In a red bacchic surge of thoughts that beat
On the mad temples like an ire's amaze,
In a fury that hurts the eyes, and yet
Doth make all things clear with a blur around,
The whole group's soul like a glad drunkard sways
And bounds up from the ground!
Ay, though all these be common people heaping
To church, from church, the bridal keeping,
Yet all the satyrs and big pagan haunches
That in taut flesh delight and teats and paunches,
And whose course, trailing through the foliage, nears
The crouched nymph that half fears,
In invisible rush, behind, before
This decent group move, and with hot thoughts store
The passive souls round which their mesh they wind,
The while their rout, loud stumbling as if blind,
Makes the hilled earth wake echoing from her sleep
To the lust in their leap.